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I've been paired since early September, under perhaps the strangest and most inconvenient array of circumstances I've experienced in a while. Big tests right at the get-go, big risks from the heart-go and some of the best returns a guy could ask for. I've done a lot to show him that I intend on being there, including a few sacrifices that I wouldn't have made with any others. This, and he's helped me out as well. Things around us are in flux, but I'm beginning to feel like we both have a secure sense of our place with each other. And that is all I have asked for.
Yes, that is all.
Funny when you find one, how suddenly it is that all the past 'other' ones come into focus. You scream at yourself for the sacrifices, punish yourself for the desperation, and redden with embarrassment at the hands of your horrific attempts at alchemy.
All this and a smile for the grand joke that was your trying too hard. All this just in time for a good one to lean in and head-on-chest you. Somewhere in the silence that follows, you have found an answer. And it is still.
Profound, the irony of that.
Yes, that is all.
Funny when you find one, how suddenly it is that all the past 'other' ones come into focus. You scream at yourself for the sacrifices, punish yourself for the desperation, and redden with embarrassment at the hands of your horrific attempts at alchemy.
All this and a smile for the grand joke that was your trying too hard. All this just in time for a good one to lean in and head-on-chest you. Somewhere in the silence that follows, you have found an answer. And it is still.
Profound, the irony of that.