It's Just Like Freshman Year
It's hit me again, as it does from time to time, that feeling of profound loneliness. The feeling you get when you are lost in a crowd of people and you don't know a soul. This was the source of my depression back in first year. I had acquaintances, but no real friends. Oh, I had Heather, and Mike, and all you lovely people that live in my computer but I still felt so lonely.
It's even worse this year than last, because I had real friends last year, that I could spend every moment I wasn't in class with, that I shared laughter and pain and some of the best moments of my life with. Not just that, but I've lost the feeling of community I had back in my first year with TsubasaForum. As much as I came to resent that place by the end, there are times when I really miss it.
I'm going to MacEwan tomorrow, to visit everyone. But even then, I don't think it's going to go away, the feeling of being alone.
Maybe when I'm done my homework I'll drown my sad.
[Mood|
]
[Music|Oasis~Wonderwall]
[Location| The Hub]
It's even worse this year than last, because I had real friends last year, that I could spend every moment I wasn't in class with, that I shared laughter and pain and some of the best moments of my life with. Not just that, but I've lost the feeling of community I had back in my first year with TsubasaForum. As much as I came to resent that place by the end, there are times when I really miss it.
I'm going to MacEwan tomorrow, to visit everyone. But even then, I don't think it's going to go away, the feeling of being alone.
Maybe when I'm done my homework I'll drown my sad.
[Mood|
]
[Music|Oasis~Wonderwall]
[Location| The Hub]