"It was many and many a year ago..."
I have come to the conclusion that I am so incredibly emotionally masochistic that it's not even funny. Oh, talking to that person or participating in that activity is going to keep you up all night thinking about what a worthless person you are and hating your lack of doing anything with your life? Perfect! Let's do it! *headdesk* This is why I try never to talk to people if I don't have to. This is why I have no super close RL friends (or online ones, for that matter). This is why I can't bring myself to RP anymore, even though I really want to try and pick up at DF again. This is why I am madly in love with people who exist only in my imagination and I write things which only occur in the past.
There, now that I've gotten that out of my system, we move on to real updating.
I met with Ken on Tuesday about stage managing for The Diviners. I'm really excited, but also rather nervous. I think the thing that concerns me the most is whether I can manage to make a clear enough distinction between Friend!Twitchy and StageManager!Twitchy, and whether the cast members can. There are some people who I think are auditioning who I'm not sure about how well they will make that distinction. That, and I will sacrifice my friendships for the sake of professionalism. Sad, maybe, but true.
I'm also rather annoyed, because Eremon isn't back from the shop yet, which means I'll have to wait until next week to transfer everything to Victoria, since this weekend is more Madwoman. Opening of that went well, but honestly, I could care less about having two more weekends of it. I'm a horrible actor, because by the time we get to performance, I'm already exhausted of the show and ready to move on to something else. I'd probably do well in a repertory company, because there's always multiple things going on at once, and in some cases rehearsal run lengths are shorter.
And if I had speakers for Toria, I could pop in a DVD and work on my altered books, but I don't even have those yet...argh.
See, I've got myself all worked up for no real reason. Well, okay, I know why I'm all worked up, but it's relatively stupid and not going to change, so I need to stop letting it get to me. It's just frustrating.
On the other hand, my dragon cross-stitch is coming along quite nicely. I may take a break and see if I can finish the dolphins though, as that one's smaller and also just sitting around in progress.
I'm now going to go poke around Amazon.com and add more stuff to my wishlist. So there.
There, now that I've gotten that out of my system, we move on to real updating.
I met with Ken on Tuesday about stage managing for The Diviners. I'm really excited, but also rather nervous. I think the thing that concerns me the most is whether I can manage to make a clear enough distinction between Friend!Twitchy and StageManager!Twitchy, and whether the cast members can. There are some people who I think are auditioning who I'm not sure about how well they will make that distinction. That, and I will sacrifice my friendships for the sake of professionalism. Sad, maybe, but true.
I'm also rather annoyed, because Eremon isn't back from the shop yet, which means I'll have to wait until next week to transfer everything to Victoria, since this weekend is more Madwoman. Opening of that went well, but honestly, I could care less about having two more weekends of it. I'm a horrible actor, because by the time we get to performance, I'm already exhausted of the show and ready to move on to something else. I'd probably do well in a repertory company, because there's always multiple things going on at once, and in some cases rehearsal run lengths are shorter.
And if I had speakers for Toria, I could pop in a DVD and work on my altered books, but I don't even have those yet...argh.
See, I've got myself all worked up for no real reason. Well, okay, I know why I'm all worked up, but it's relatively stupid and not going to change, so I need to stop letting it get to me. It's just frustrating.
On the other hand, my dragon cross-stitch is coming along quite nicely. I may take a break and see if I can finish the dolphins though, as that one's smaller and also just sitting around in progress.
I'm now going to go poke around Amazon.com and add more stuff to my wishlist. So there.