Quite Distressing
"What's Ere been up to the past month" update number there: The Cibele entry. This one is sort of awkward to write; not so much as I have anything bad to say about Cibele, but because I'm sure that anything weird I say here will come back to haunt me a hundred times over. But if I'm going to be saying things like "did 4 hours of Campaign with Cibele" or "leveled dancer again with Cibele" then it's a fair question to wonder who the hell Cibele is and why I'm spending ridiculous amounts of time with her when I haven't said a word about her except in passing reference.
So okay.
I made first reference to Cibele on November 12th so that's probably when we met. Reading other entries from around that time, it was about when I was totally giving up on AXI ever being the powerful linkshell that it was when I joined. Dynamis events were turning sour, weeks of teasing me with a nobles tunic ended by someone from Shiva giving me one instead of the officers giving me an LS one of their eight (eight, for Christ's sake!) that were just sitting around on a mule. Salvage was still fun but the poor drop rates were setting in. I wasn't exactly considering quitting the game but it was beginning to be more tedius than it was rewarding.
And then one of the AXI members invites his friend Cibele, who wasn't in AXI, to start hanging around with us on our Ventrilo server. Cibele, hmm. How can I word this without regretting it too much later? I probably can't, so I guess I'd better just bite the bullet. Well, she's funny. And a good sport about pretty much everything. And shares my flare for the writing and theatrics. And she has the most bizzare little phrases. Cryingface! And she's not a freaking idiot, which is really too refreshing of a change than it should be. So we got along well essentially from day one.
She's also a girl. I'd start denying that had anything to do with things, but I don't really see the point. Though really, this was sort of an intimidating. After we started talking more she told me a lot of stories about how guys did silly things to try to win her heart in-game, and we laughed. But it made it quite clear that I was walking a sort of narrow line. On one hand, she's my friend and I want to go do things with her. On the other, my little name could be added to that list of silly fooligans if I don't pay attention, and that could be the end of that. Though really that was only when I first met her. Now things seem to be okay. (I can almost feel the comments she's going to give me about this...)
Almost immediately after we started talking some people sent me "warnings" about her, about how she was going to just use me. And yeah, that was sort of suspicious, so I had my eyes open. But if she's out to use me she's probably doing the worst job of it I've ever seen. The only thing I've ever given her was a silver imperial coin so she could save herself a trip to the auction house. A whopping 1.5k gil value. Heck, I even got her to power level my dancer to 10, so really, I've used her more than she's used me. How 'bout them apples, you idiot rumor-spreaders.
So we did a fair amount of Ventrilo talking over the next couplea days, and a fair amount of going AFK by a pole in whitegate (people on Sylph have probably tripped over us there the past month) but not a whole lot else. At least until the expansion was released. I joking suggested we should have a two dancer static, not even knowing of that would be any good. Well as it turns out a two dancer duo static is AMAZINGLY good. Plus I like campaign and she likes campaign so we've been doing a ridiculous amount of campaigning.
Except, of course, that I was in AXI and she was in SX. AXI mostly had early afternoon events; SX's all at 9 PM. Now of course there are people that look at the chain of events that have happened recently - me leaving AXI and joining SX - and will jump immediately to the conclusion that I went crazy over Cibele and abandoned AXI haphazardly to join SX to be with her. It's not nearly that cut and dry. While I will admit that Cibele was a major factor in me joining SX, so was my best real life friend Sampi being in that linkshell as well, along with some former Synergy members that I didn't dislike such as Yendor and CoP static member Koukla. But really, more important than who is in SX is who wasn't in SX - particularly Lar and other frustrating members of AXI. My decision to move linkshells was far far less about the new linkshell being better and more about my current linkshell driving me crazy. I knew I would be gone from AXI before year's end - having friends in SX just made the transition a lot easier.
You can disbelieve that above paragraph if you want to. This blog is about honesty to myself, so really, I don't care what your personal pet theories are.
Now that I'm in SX and it's Christmas break we've been, like, joined at the hip. Lots of time to level dancer, do campaigns, and then go to SX events in the evening. The dancers are at level 29 now - we hope 40 by the end of break.
I know, this is probably going to end strangely. Most in-game things do. But in the meantime it's a lot of fun and that's all that ever mattered. I have someone to do the things I like to do in game with, and to talk to and joke with. So people can say what they want. No regrets.
So okay.
I made first reference to Cibele on November 12th so that's probably when we met. Reading other entries from around that time, it was about when I was totally giving up on AXI ever being the powerful linkshell that it was when I joined. Dynamis events were turning sour, weeks of teasing me with a nobles tunic ended by someone from Shiva giving me one instead of the officers giving me an LS one of their eight (eight, for Christ's sake!) that were just sitting around on a mule. Salvage was still fun but the poor drop rates were setting in. I wasn't exactly considering quitting the game but it was beginning to be more tedius than it was rewarding.
And then one of the AXI members invites his friend Cibele, who wasn't in AXI, to start hanging around with us on our Ventrilo server. Cibele, hmm. How can I word this without regretting it too much later? I probably can't, so I guess I'd better just bite the bullet. Well, she's funny. And a good sport about pretty much everything. And shares my flare for the writing and theatrics. And she has the most bizzare little phrases. Cryingface! And she's not a freaking idiot, which is really too refreshing of a change than it should be. So we got along well essentially from day one.
She's also a girl. I'd start denying that had anything to do with things, but I don't really see the point. Though really, this was sort of an intimidating. After we started talking more she told me a lot of stories about how guys did silly things to try to win her heart in-game, and we laughed. But it made it quite clear that I was walking a sort of narrow line. On one hand, she's my friend and I want to go do things with her. On the other, my little name could be added to that list of silly fooligans if I don't pay attention, and that could be the end of that. Though really that was only when I first met her. Now things seem to be okay. (I can almost feel the comments she's going to give me about this...)
Almost immediately after we started talking some people sent me "warnings" about her, about how she was going to just use me. And yeah, that was sort of suspicious, so I had my eyes open. But if she's out to use me she's probably doing the worst job of it I've ever seen. The only thing I've ever given her was a silver imperial coin so she could save herself a trip to the auction house. A whopping 1.5k gil value. Heck, I even got her to power level my dancer to 10, so really, I've used her more than she's used me. How 'bout them apples, you idiot rumor-spreaders.
So we did a fair amount of Ventrilo talking over the next couplea days, and a fair amount of going AFK by a pole in whitegate (people on Sylph have probably tripped over us there the past month) but not a whole lot else. At least until the expansion was released. I joking suggested we should have a two dancer static, not even knowing of that would be any good. Well as it turns out a two dancer duo static is AMAZINGLY good. Plus I like campaign and she likes campaign so we've been doing a ridiculous amount of campaigning.
Except, of course, that I was in AXI and she was in SX. AXI mostly had early afternoon events; SX's all at 9 PM. Now of course there are people that look at the chain of events that have happened recently - me leaving AXI and joining SX - and will jump immediately to the conclusion that I went crazy over Cibele and abandoned AXI haphazardly to join SX to be with her. It's not nearly that cut and dry. While I will admit that Cibele was a major factor in me joining SX, so was my best real life friend Sampi being in that linkshell as well, along with some former Synergy members that I didn't dislike such as Yendor and CoP static member Koukla. But really, more important than who is in SX is who wasn't in SX - particularly Lar and other frustrating members of AXI. My decision to move linkshells was far far less about the new linkshell being better and more about my current linkshell driving me crazy. I knew I would be gone from AXI before year's end - having friends in SX just made the transition a lot easier.
You can disbelieve that above paragraph if you want to. This blog is about honesty to myself, so really, I don't care what your personal pet theories are.
Now that I'm in SX and it's Christmas break we've been, like, joined at the hip. Lots of time to level dancer, do campaigns, and then go to SX events in the evening. The dancers are at level 29 now - we hope 40 by the end of break.
I know, this is probably going to end strangely. Most in-game things do. But in the meantime it's a lot of fun and that's all that ever mattered. I have someone to do the things I like to do in game with, and to talk to and joke with. So people can say what they want. No regrets.