wow
i don't even know where to begin. this week by far has been the shittiest ive had in a while.
For starters, Brad fucked Sabrina. ummm all i can say is wow how gross can you be. im not mad about the fact he did someone, im mad that it was her. yikes. in all honesty no one really knows what that kid is all about and i have feeling its nothing good. but ive lost all hope in the brad department. I wish i had enough energy to actually care and be pissed about the situation because im really not. its just.. i dont know, dissapointing.
Next issue- my dad. quite possibly the most bipolar person i have ever met in my entire life. He's never actually been a dad to me like some people have. Some people can talk about their problems to their dad, look up to them as a role model or even enjoy spending time with them. I only know my dad on two levels; an asshole and a guy to joke around with. I honestly can't recall ever having a heart to heart with him. How sad is that? And we live under the same roof, how pathedic. It's my senior year and its my fault for not doing better through out high school, but i still have a 2.6 GPA and around 1100 SAT's. That's acceptable in my book, apparently not in his. Want to see how much support i get? He told me I'd be LUCKY to get into Fitchburg State. Wow dad, thanks.
So the new thing is because im not doing my best in school i cant go out on school nights anymore? and for every time im late to school i cant go out a weekend night? Now Some parents are strict, but thats just plain retarded. I have done nothing wrong - NOTHING. I am a normal 18 year old senior who does everything other normal 18 year olds do. this my last year of high school, i should enjoy it to the fullest which i have been doing for the last 3 months, but apparently he thinks that should change. The best part is my mom agrees with me completely. Not because she's a softy, because shes a human and has a heart. I can't stand it when him yelling at me gets her upset because I feel like its my fault but hes just a fucking ass and how she puts up with that is waay beyond me. He thinks im dumb and cant figure out his alterior motive is for me to do good in school, go to college and get a good job. All those things are possible in one way or another. I do average which is enough for the schools i like and i had been feeling pretty good about the whole college thing, but now ive worried myself to death all because of him. Wow, what a great thing for a father to do. He needs to understand I am grown up, I also am dissapointed in my academic performance.I will reap all the reprecussions of my actions, so he needs to understand that reaall quick.
I totally just lost my train of thought cuz of a phone call, but either way im glad i wrote this all down.
time to blow off some steam at the gym.
For starters, Brad fucked Sabrina. ummm all i can say is wow how gross can you be. im not mad about the fact he did someone, im mad that it was her. yikes. in all honesty no one really knows what that kid is all about and i have feeling its nothing good. but ive lost all hope in the brad department. I wish i had enough energy to actually care and be pissed about the situation because im really not. its just.. i dont know, dissapointing.
Next issue- my dad. quite possibly the most bipolar person i have ever met in my entire life. He's never actually been a dad to me like some people have. Some people can talk about their problems to their dad, look up to them as a role model or even enjoy spending time with them. I only know my dad on two levels; an asshole and a guy to joke around with. I honestly can't recall ever having a heart to heart with him. How sad is that? And we live under the same roof, how pathedic. It's my senior year and its my fault for not doing better through out high school, but i still have a 2.6 GPA and around 1100 SAT's. That's acceptable in my book, apparently not in his. Want to see how much support i get? He told me I'd be LUCKY to get into Fitchburg State. Wow dad, thanks.
So the new thing is because im not doing my best in school i cant go out on school nights anymore? and for every time im late to school i cant go out a weekend night? Now Some parents are strict, but thats just plain retarded. I have done nothing wrong - NOTHING. I am a normal 18 year old senior who does everything other normal 18 year olds do. this my last year of high school, i should enjoy it to the fullest which i have been doing for the last 3 months, but apparently he thinks that should change. The best part is my mom agrees with me completely. Not because she's a softy, because shes a human and has a heart. I can't stand it when him yelling at me gets her upset because I feel like its my fault but hes just a fucking ass and how she puts up with that is waay beyond me. He thinks im dumb and cant figure out his alterior motive is for me to do good in school, go to college and get a good job. All those things are possible in one way or another. I do average which is enough for the schools i like and i had been feeling pretty good about the whole college thing, but now ive worried myself to death all because of him. Wow, what a great thing for a father to do. He needs to understand I am grown up, I also am dissapointed in my academic performance.I will reap all the reprecussions of my actions, so he needs to understand that reaall quick.
I totally just lost my train of thought cuz of a phone call, but either way im glad i wrote this all down.
time to blow off some steam at the gym.