Reflections
I am trying to fight against just a general irritation lately. My mind has been going back to where I was this time last year. I have many things that I am rejoicing in (a good job, and no longer being hung up on someone who is no good for me) but yet, I'm just irritated at little things that seems to be so... I dont know. But it just seems weird to me cause this time last year certain friends on facebook were posting 100s of pictures of reminders of what I was not a part of and someone I wished was not a part of it. Now the opposite is happening - all these that did all this photo taking and such are not. I don't know. It's just kind of like.... "why couldn't I have not dealt with all of the photojournalism that got under my skin about someone?" Why could have this one big thing that affected me have not happened? Like why can't this season have been last season so I would not have been subjected to such influx of reminders of what I knew I didn't want to miss but was?
Likewise, just how some things have played out. Things I had hoped for last year definitely were not in the same timeline that I had hoped for but a year late. And even more damage done to where I just am kinda resigned about it all.
I am still optimistic (much more so than what I feel that I have ever been) and I still have a notion that there is a trust issue simmering even in fighting this irritation.
I am tired and I have to expend a lot of energy through out the rest of the night. Bllllaaahhhhhh. Sometimes I think I am just as content with sleeping my life away. But, this is an opportunity to meet new people and I really do enjoy roller skating.
Likewise, just how some things have played out. Things I had hoped for last year definitely were not in the same timeline that I had hoped for but a year late. And even more damage done to where I just am kinda resigned about it all.
I am still optimistic (much more so than what I feel that I have ever been) and I still have a notion that there is a trust issue simmering even in fighting this irritation.
I am tired and I have to expend a lot of energy through out the rest of the night. Bllllaaahhhhhh. Sometimes I think I am just as content with sleeping my life away. But, this is an opportunity to meet new people and I really do enjoy roller skating.