Free Fallin
A random myspace survey question: what's the biggest misinterpretation people seem to have about you?
My very honest answer: that I have it all together, I kinda do but I really don't. I just try to make choices that will not backfire or drag me further down. Also, that I'm strong... I am but it's often forced upon me (I feel) and I adapt, so it's definitely not by choice.
I've only just recently really accepted this about myself... I think someone called me out on this a long time ago but it was only recently that it was apparent in my own understanding of myself. But I don't know what it means for me to do so.
I have no idea why this song is affecting me the way it is... I'm about to take two of my lortabs and fall asleep. It's a different pain that I'm experiencing than that which I truly was prescribed these for.
I guess I could truly do what I did during highschool... choose to channel all my crush and dreams into some fabulous musician that I'll never meet to be in love with (I was in LOVE with Noel Gallagher from Oasis). Lol. Now it can be John Mayer. Hell, he'll never hurt me cause it's one sided and not real. No one is ever what I want anyway - and the one that caught my attention for so long feels like one bad addiction in itself that I momentarily experience withdrawals from although it's fewer and farther in between that they cause me to feel anything at all.
Eh. I'm really not sure what brought this on... really. It's like flutters that are on the lower end of the spectrum and damnit, I am not feeling these pills.
But goodnight anyway.
My very honest answer: that I have it all together, I kinda do but I really don't. I just try to make choices that will not backfire or drag me further down. Also, that I'm strong... I am but it's often forced upon me (I feel) and I adapt, so it's definitely not by choice.
I've only just recently really accepted this about myself... I think someone called me out on this a long time ago but it was only recently that it was apparent in my own understanding of myself. But I don't know what it means for me to do so.
I have no idea why this song is affecting me the way it is... I'm about to take two of my lortabs and fall asleep. It's a different pain that I'm experiencing than that which I truly was prescribed these for.
I guess I could truly do what I did during highschool... choose to channel all my crush and dreams into some fabulous musician that I'll never meet to be in love with (I was in LOVE with Noel Gallagher from Oasis). Lol. Now it can be John Mayer. Hell, he'll never hurt me cause it's one sided and not real. No one is ever what I want anyway - and the one that caught my attention for so long feels like one bad addiction in itself that I momentarily experience withdrawals from although it's fewer and farther in between that they cause me to feel anything at all.
Eh. I'm really not sure what brought this on... really. It's like flutters that are on the lower end of the spectrum and damnit, I am not feeling these pills.
But goodnight anyway.