champagne from a paper cup
So, I usually use this for random/profound (to me)/lyrics, etc thoughts - things - but today I feel like spamming.
For useless use of usual things -
I have been slowly rotating my circadian rhythm back to the dreaded staying up every night until 3ish and not waking up till 11ish. This is not good cause I'm not doing ANYTHING productive and I feel like a lazy bum cause of it. And... it's also not good cause the last time I had a flexible schedule, I got into a routine of being up until 6 a.m. and sleeping until 2 in the afternoon. This might be fun if I were hanging out with friends on e. Haha... but I'm not around any of those people anymore and I don't think they even do it as much or at all like they used to and definitely not every night of the week. (: o)
So, yeah. I'm once again reminded of the fact that I am a person that doesn't need drugs because of the fact that I see everything warped anyway... I'm quirky, not strange. Cause I'm too normal for anyone to look at me weird and yet weird enough for normal people to be like "eh?", if they pay attention at all.
So the world is getting smaller as far as people I know knowing people that know other people and who I've known in the past (and who people choose to hang out with). It's weird to me.
Okay, so I have to get back to my baby steps cause I've paid $300 something dollars to work on my thesis over the summer. I have to get my own money's worth of effort out of this.
Hopefully, I'll have a job on campus ssooooonnnn to be able to have fall semester's thesis hour paid for by the school. Woot.
I wish I didn't have to blog about being in damn school. I have an interesting life but this is sucking me dry.......
A lot of people I know are going to fabulous distant (out of the country) locations and it's making me sad that I am not able to. I will seriously be a very sad panda if I do not get to travel in the coming years and through out my life. I look at my parents (my dad doesn't leave the house unless it's for work or family visiting) and it makes me want to burst at the seams - they are fine with the fact that they go nowhere. I, however, am not.
I need motivation to do little things around my house. Bleah! Okay - to lighter subjects?
okay whatevs... I'm going to attempt to be productive. Peace.
Okay, so I'm just now admitting to myself that I'm just pissy today. My hair so aggravates me, it requires way too much maintenance to look decent. It's a ton of very fine strands which means it's this contradictory mess of thick and thin... to where braids looks like I have no hair but when I go to wear it curly or straighten it out - I have to deal with freakin like 3 layers of hair.
it effin makes no sense.
And I caught myself looking into the past and getting irritated that it happened at all... and even to the effect that I'm still slightly irritated that it's happening now.
*heaves a big great sigh* and I've not been productive AT ALL and my eyes... well, I don't feel like putting my contacts in cause they (my eyes) have been red lately, no matter what kind of eye drops I've put in and - sheesh, I've done no substances to make them get that way. And I just feel uuugggglllyyyy today. Maybe that's it.
I need a glass (or two) of champagne. Don't care about the cup, glass, what the hell ever it is in.
For useless use of usual things -
I have been slowly rotating my circadian rhythm back to the dreaded staying up every night until 3ish and not waking up till 11ish. This is not good cause I'm not doing ANYTHING productive and I feel like a lazy bum cause of it. And... it's also not good cause the last time I had a flexible schedule, I got into a routine of being up until 6 a.m. and sleeping until 2 in the afternoon. This might be fun if I were hanging out with friends on e. Haha... but I'm not around any of those people anymore and I don't think they even do it as much or at all like they used to and definitely not every night of the week. (: o)
So, yeah. I'm once again reminded of the fact that I am a person that doesn't need drugs because of the fact that I see everything warped anyway... I'm quirky, not strange. Cause I'm too normal for anyone to look at me weird and yet weird enough for normal people to be like "eh?", if they pay attention at all.
So the world is getting smaller as far as people I know knowing people that know other people and who I've known in the past (and who people choose to hang out with). It's weird to me.
Okay, so I have to get back to my baby steps cause I've paid $300 something dollars to work on my thesis over the summer. I have to get my own money's worth of effort out of this.
Hopefully, I'll have a job on campus ssooooonnnn to be able to have fall semester's thesis hour paid for by the school. Woot.
I wish I didn't have to blog about being in damn school. I have an interesting life but this is sucking me dry.......
A lot of people I know are going to fabulous distant (out of the country) locations and it's making me sad that I am not able to. I will seriously be a very sad panda if I do not get to travel in the coming years and through out my life. I look at my parents (my dad doesn't leave the house unless it's for work or family visiting) and it makes me want to burst at the seams - they are fine with the fact that they go nowhere. I, however, am not.
I need motivation to do little things around my house. Bleah! Okay - to lighter subjects?
okay whatevs... I'm going to attempt to be productive. Peace.
Okay, so I'm just now admitting to myself that I'm just pissy today. My hair so aggravates me, it requires way too much maintenance to look decent. It's a ton of very fine strands which means it's this contradictory mess of thick and thin... to where braids looks like I have no hair but when I go to wear it curly or straighten it out - I have to deal with freakin like 3 layers of hair.
it effin makes no sense.
And I caught myself looking into the past and getting irritated that it happened at all... and even to the effect that I'm still slightly irritated that it's happening now.
*heaves a big great sigh* and I've not been productive AT ALL and my eyes... well, I don't feel like putting my contacts in cause they (my eyes) have been red lately, no matter what kind of eye drops I've put in and - sheesh, I've done no substances to make them get that way. And I just feel uuugggglllyyyy today. Maybe that's it.
I need a glass (or two) of champagne. Don't care about the cup, glass, what the hell ever it is in.