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No matter how happy you feel you are, if there is just one part, a teeny tiny part inside you which is hurting or missing in you in any way, this one part will never ever let you forget it.
No matter how happy you feel, as soon as you realize this part, all joy and happiness just fades away and all you feel is this little part of you that lack does not allow you to be completely happy.
No matter how happy you feel, as soon as you realize this part, all joy and happiness just fades away and all you feel is this little part of you that lack does not allow you to be completely happy.