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Jake was right...Jake's always right...
But I think this is too much for me.
I actually know this is too much for me.
I'm not going to bend...if I bend I'll break!
You can't ask people to bend when you know they've broken before...
I feel like I'm being held together with some gum and popsicle sticks and string.
And I'm not bending...I always bend...and

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[ikit_claw]

The Bends

Everything's been going pretty well. Nothing terribly exciting- I mean, I just turned 21 (you're one day off- my birthday's on the 17th), so that's exciting I guess. Tonight I'm going to the Intersection to go see a Mega 80's show. Other than that, work is still work, I still can't drive a company vehicle, the new guy is pretty cool, and so on.

But I did spend all yesterday sleeping. So I guess I'm one better than you?

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yeah...radiohead works. I figured I only missed it by like 6 hours, but then i couldn't remember because i know like 5 people who have birthdays on the 22nd only in all different months. And most people's days are better than mine as of late!

[ikit_claw]

People's days are better than yours? What?

You know, you write incredibly cryptically. I feel like I should have a decoder ring sometimes when I read your entries.

But maybe that's just because a decoder ring would be kickin'.

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Might be cryptic but the point is made...And yeah my days suck...but I'm alright with that!

[ikit_claw]

But that's what I'm saying- the point isn't always made, at least not to me. I didn't really get that "people's days are better than mine" meant that "my days suck", which I think means that your bored, but I'm not really sure.

Oh! But I got this girl's number at the Mega 80's show (she was serving beer). So now begins the period where I call her and leave a message and look at my phone every 5 minutes to see if I've missed anything and eventually she'll call me back but we won't be able to get together and I'll call her in a couple days and leave another message and she won't get back to me so I'll wait a day or two and call and leave another message and wait a day or two and leave another message and then realize she's avoiding and get all angry and depressed and wonder why nothing ever seems to work out. So, yeah, I'm excited!

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My days suck doesn't mean I'm bored...it means that I'm going insane. And that I hate people. And people hate me. And my will to give a damn is shot.

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but good luck with random girl...and if she's busy the first time tell her to call you when she's free. Then it's not in your hands and you don't have to freak

[ikit_claw]

1. How are you going insane if not from boredom?
2. People hating is hardly unnatural.
3. People hardly hate you.
4. Sometimes it's better to not give a damn.
5. It's because it's not in my hands that I freak. It's because there's nothing I can do, because I'm at the mercy of this girl, of her whims and desires, and theres' not a damn thing I can do, in fact doing stuff hurts rather than helps, That's why I freak.

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I'm good...well I'm not, but I'm going to be! And the not having things in you hands thing just make me have a mini-breakdown i think, but i'm good now. I like apple juice. Apple juice is good!

[ikit_claw]

Remember when I was saying that you write cryptically?

Yeah.

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yeah, i know but i'm good now...no more cryptic...maybe