a garden of broken friendships reminds you youve survived
so today i wore my hair down most of the day. i have before but no one sees me until later on in the day after i have already put it up so there bitches. why do people pick on me? raelyn was like "you look like a girl!!" and i was like "thanx for saying im a man and all" then she was like "no
thats not what i meant ... hahaha you always look like a girl i mean you are a girl and all ... its just you like girly i guess" ..... wow thats one way to save yourself eh? what a loser .. she writes me notes and shit in soanish and makes it so obvious that shes coming to the other side of the room to give me a fucking pointless note ... she got up like 10 times to throw away paper ... o man. i think that almost everyone i saw today touched me in some way... i feel molested in the halls, right cause theres people hitting me cause im 'hittable' i guess. i dont agree at all. then theres people touching my hair like 'oh my fucking gaaaawwwd!!! you look so pretty!!!' im always being touched or groaped by nasty fuckers who grab and hide... its like a sick fucking game they play. the stupid fuckers who everyone knows they never had a girlfriend and go home after one day telling themselves 'i touched 3 girls today ... now i can wack myself off!! woo hoo!!' FUCKING LOSERS!!!...
i have decided that im not being nice to asses in my class cause i hate them all very much... i got 3 of them in inhouse and 1 of them i got them like a week of office detention .... im proud of myself ... and when they all come back from that they ask who ratted and they never look at me even tho im the only one who actually hates them. fucking losers.... i have been hating people lately. mostly asses who dont know anything ... eric was all like talking to me this morning and by the way i had a fucked up morning ... i cried but i dont know why!! whats with that?!?!?!? id like to know cause i think im dying or something. so eric asks me if we are going out and i was like 'where have you been??!!' then he looked at me like he had no idea what i was talking about and said 'i have been all alone and at home ... and i lost your number can i have it?' i was like thinking what a nice life you have but then i said 'no!! you cant have my number we arent going out qand i dont want to talk to you anymore. will you stop following me and talking to me and looking at me like you had no idea i was going to say that to you!!!' and yes i know that maybe wasnt the best way to solve the problem but i wasnt in a good mood at all so i dont give a fuck ...
you know who i miss at times like these?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? AMANDA!!!!!! I FUCKING LOVE YOU!!!!! come back soon ...
you know who i also love .... STEPH!!! shes been there for me through alot too and i love her more than she will ever know for what shes done for me soif you read this know its true ...
thats not what i meant ... hahaha you always look like a girl i mean you are a girl and all ... its just you like girly i guess" ..... wow thats one way to save yourself eh? what a loser .. she writes me notes and shit in soanish and makes it so obvious that shes coming to the other side of the room to give me a fucking pointless note ... she got up like 10 times to throw away paper ... o man. i think that almost everyone i saw today touched me in some way... i feel molested in the halls, right cause theres people hitting me cause im 'hittable' i guess. i dont agree at all. then theres people touching my hair like 'oh my fucking gaaaawwwd!!! you look so pretty!!!' im always being touched or groaped by nasty fuckers who grab and hide... its like a sick fucking game they play. the stupid fuckers who everyone knows they never had a girlfriend and go home after one day telling themselves 'i touched 3 girls today ... now i can wack myself off!! woo hoo!!' FUCKING LOSERS!!!...
i have decided that im not being nice to asses in my class cause i hate them all very much... i got 3 of them in inhouse and 1 of them i got them like a week of office detention .... im proud of myself ... and when they all come back from that they ask who ratted and they never look at me even tho im the only one who actually hates them. fucking losers.... i have been hating people lately. mostly asses who dont know anything ... eric was all like talking to me this morning and by the way i had a fucked up morning ... i cried but i dont know why!! whats with that?!?!?!? id like to know cause i think im dying or something. so eric asks me if we are going out and i was like 'where have you been??!!' then he looked at me like he had no idea what i was talking about and said 'i have been all alone and at home ... and i lost your number can i have it?' i was like thinking what a nice life you have but then i said 'no!! you cant have my number we arent going out qand i dont want to talk to you anymore. will you stop following me and talking to me and looking at me like you had no idea i was going to say that to you!!!' and yes i know that maybe wasnt the best way to solve the problem but i wasnt in a good mood at all so i dont give a fuck ...
you know who i miss at times like these?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? AMANDA!!!!!! I FUCKING LOVE YOU!!!!! come back soon ...
you know who i also love .... STEPH!!! shes been there for me through alot too and i love her more than she will ever know for what shes done for me soif you read this know its true ...