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I just want someone to love.
I know that nobody down here can handle this...this horror in which I consume myself.
I want someone for years...forever. Nobody wants me that long. Haha.
I hate being such a little emo fuck.
And yet the gnawing pain in the deepest crevices of me has returned, right when I need it least.
I miss my dad.
I miss El Paso.
Everytime I see something, or think of something, that reminds me of those two, those two halves of my whole, I feel like crying.
You wonder why I'm not the same?
I've lost everything to this mess of life I own.
I want Abby back. I want Sarah back. I want Linda back.
I want Dadn back.
I just want to be the center of somebody's world, instead of giving everything and getting nothing back. But even that, at this moment, would be better than what I have right now.
--Katrina
I know that nobody down here can handle this...this horror in which I consume myself.
I want someone for years...forever. Nobody wants me that long. Haha.
I hate being such a little emo fuck.
And yet the gnawing pain in the deepest crevices of me has returned, right when I need it least.
I miss my dad.
I miss El Paso.
Everytime I see something, or think of something, that reminds me of those two, those two halves of my whole, I feel like crying.
You wonder why I'm not the same?
I've lost everything to this mess of life I own.
I want Abby back. I want Sarah back. I want Linda back.
I want Dadn back.
I just want to be the center of somebody's world, instead of giving everything and getting nothing back. But even that, at this moment, would be better than what I have right now.
--Katrina