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yeah so in the last year ive lost a friend,three cats, and a kid. made some of the dumbest decisions in my life. and cut and cried more then i ever have before. when i would fall asleep i really wish i wouldnt have woken up.
i stopped going to school and now i feel like a total fucking failure. i hate my apperance and would change so many things. i hate myself and still dont see why i am alive why havent i died yet?
i feel like a fucking whore, though i AM NOT!. i feel worthless. i gained alot more enemies. and i have real high emotions right now, when im mad or slightly annoyed i want to slash peoples throats.
my parents are constantly driving me insane, my brother is constantly annoying me and doing things to piss me off. my computer is broken! -sigh-
i get random pain in my chest emotional pain and i dont know why. though things have been better i still have alot of pain that i cant express, and if i do i cant stop. i over react.
while trying to deal with other peoples emotions. emotions isnt something im good with.
im home right now, my parents finally left to go shopping at 6 and i needed to be home at 4:30 what? why did i need to be home then if they werent even going to leave till 6. then they just piss me off in general blamming me for shit that isnt my responsbilty.
god!!!!!!!
i feel like fucking killing
im going to smoke a ciggerette and ill feel a lil bit better.
i stopped going to school and now i feel like a total fucking failure. i hate my apperance and would change so many things. i hate myself and still dont see why i am alive why havent i died yet?
i feel like a fucking whore, though i AM NOT!. i feel worthless. i gained alot more enemies. and i have real high emotions right now, when im mad or slightly annoyed i want to slash peoples throats.
my parents are constantly driving me insane, my brother is constantly annoying me and doing things to piss me off. my computer is broken! -sigh-
i get random pain in my chest emotional pain and i dont know why. though things have been better i still have alot of pain that i cant express, and if i do i cant stop. i over react.
while trying to deal with other peoples emotions. emotions isnt something im good with.
im home right now, my parents finally left to go shopping at 6 and i needed to be home at 4:30 what? why did i need to be home then if they werent even going to leave till 6. then they just piss me off in general blamming me for shit that isnt my responsbilty.
god!!!!!!!
i feel like fucking killing
im going to smoke a ciggerette and ill feel a lil bit better.