i hate everything!
i hate my job.. i think that i have finally had it with bostons.. they are a terrible company to work for and i just cant stand it any more.. how do u go from workin five days and never really doin nething wrokg one week to workin only two days the next.. and right at christmas.. there should be a law against this.. i mean i cant even pay rent with two days let alond try and go christmas shopping.. i know there has to be something wring but bob wont tell me.. and once again for the third week in a row i only have two days nexy week.. he says its becuase i requested off sat.. chistmas eve and we are closed sunday.. well wtf i am soo angry right now.. when this happends it makes me feel like such a shitty person.. all around i mean i kno i need to go and get a new job but it makes me feel like i am an awful server and that i cant do it so why would i try and get another serving job if i cant even do the one that i have right now.
me and justin have been having some rough times too and it sux.. we had a talk and basically it just made me feel like an awful g/f i mean i kno thats not what he was trying to accomplish.. but well i dunno it just sux makes me feel even more like a pile of shit
oooo got my grades back today.. so i knew i wasnt doing great in psyc but yah i got a d- way to go.. idiot. i'm supposed to be trying to get into the dental hygiene program.. yah with a gpa of like 2.5 i am sure they are gonna let me right in..
im really not good at anything i do..and everyone who i tell i wanna do the dh thing says its really good money once u get there but the program is really hard and really intense.. and honestly i am starting to think that i cant do it.. i mean i want to..but i just dont think that i can.. and that makes me mad
part of me just wants to give and go move back home.. but would that really make anything better? prolly not i mean i might have an extra 600 bucks a month but then what would happen to me and justin? i mean me telling him i am gonna move home but i still love you.. yah thats a slap in the face.. ugh i just hate everything right now
i have thought many times while working at bostons thati wanna put my two weeks in and just quit.. but tonight i wanted to more then ever.. just he whole place makes me so angry just everything about it.. you kno they are prolly closing at the beginnig of the yr i might as well quit now and get ahead huh? this is fuckin gay.. i am so angry right now! i dont even kno what to do.. or say or think everything just sux
then tonight i had a table walk out on me that was nice they left me 6 bucks and thier tab was 33 thanx a lot.. thankfully bob discounted it.. but i didnt get any tip.. and tehre were like two other tables that i could do nothing to please..
i am outta school for this month and every day i wanna go xmas shopping but i cant cuz i dont even kno how i am gonna pay rent.. or any of the other bills... my bank account is 45 dollars in the hole.. fuck and i never work... like i said there needs to be a law against cutting someones hrs this much a christmas time
i need to apply at beaches.. i kno people there who will help me to get the job i need out of bostons i cant handel this stupid shit any more
me and justin have been having some rough times too and it sux.. we had a talk and basically it just made me feel like an awful g/f i mean i kno thats not what he was trying to accomplish.. but well i dunno it just sux makes me feel even more like a pile of shit
oooo got my grades back today.. so i knew i wasnt doing great in psyc but yah i got a d- way to go.. idiot. i'm supposed to be trying to get into the dental hygiene program.. yah with a gpa of like 2.5 i am sure they are gonna let me right in..
im really not good at anything i do..and everyone who i tell i wanna do the dh thing says its really good money once u get there but the program is really hard and really intense.. and honestly i am starting to think that i cant do it.. i mean i want to..but i just dont think that i can.. and that makes me mad
part of me just wants to give and go move back home.. but would that really make anything better? prolly not i mean i might have an extra 600 bucks a month but then what would happen to me and justin? i mean me telling him i am gonna move home but i still love you.. yah thats a slap in the face.. ugh i just hate everything right now
i have thought many times while working at bostons thati wanna put my two weeks in and just quit.. but tonight i wanted to more then ever.. just he whole place makes me so angry just everything about it.. you kno they are prolly closing at the beginnig of the yr i might as well quit now and get ahead huh? this is fuckin gay.. i am so angry right now! i dont even kno what to do.. or say or think everything just sux
then tonight i had a table walk out on me that was nice they left me 6 bucks and thier tab was 33 thanx a lot.. thankfully bob discounted it.. but i didnt get any tip.. and tehre were like two other tables that i could do nothing to please..
i am outta school for this month and every day i wanna go xmas shopping but i cant cuz i dont even kno how i am gonna pay rent.. or any of the other bills... my bank account is 45 dollars in the hole.. fuck and i never work... like i said there needs to be a law against cutting someones hrs this much a christmas time
i need to apply at beaches.. i kno people there who will help me to get the job i need out of bostons i cant handel this stupid shit any more