mood swings
so yesterday i was all content and happy with the way my life was.. then now today not so much. its so wierd how i can go from being all happy and excited one day, then the next i'm all depressed.. feel too fat, have gross skin, am getting lost in my classes, which in turn makes me wanna quit school all together,i mean really why am i goin? what am i gonna do with my life? i think it would be cool to be a dental hygenist but i really dont think that for one have the gpa to get into it, and two you have to take chemistry and i cant even pass math 109.. i sutdied my ass off for my psyc test and i still got a c-. i'm soo broke and dont kno when i am ever goin to be able to work more.. bostons is screwing me over again.. i am only schedualed two days again this week.. my moms elmers is hiring but then do i want to work there?
i hate all my clothes, and never feel like i can look good any more.. so i think okay i'm gonna start eating better and working out every night.. yah right.. i guess i am eating a little better but im definitly NOT getting skinnier, actually i feel like i am getting fatter by the day and it sux..
i'm always tired and i dont really do nething.. but everyday i take at least an hr long nap no matter how much sleep i have had the night before, then when i get up i really dont feel like doin nething but sitting on the couch and watchin tv.. when really i have all kinds of shit i need to study for..
have a history test tomarrow which i am not at all ready for and i kno that i need to study but i just cant get myself to do it.. i just dont even kno where to start.. so i thinkin of skippin the class and hoping the teacher will forget and i wont have to make it up.. actually this happened last quarter with the same teacher so it might just happen..
also i still need to deal with brewed.. i dont think i work there ne more.. but i need to go in and talk to the manager.. but i keep putting that off... grr.. i just hate life right now :(
ne ways i think thats all, heres to a better day tomarrow?
i hate all my clothes, and never feel like i can look good any more.. so i think okay i'm gonna start eating better and working out every night.. yah right.. i guess i am eating a little better but im definitly NOT getting skinnier, actually i feel like i am getting fatter by the day and it sux..
i'm always tired and i dont really do nething.. but everyday i take at least an hr long nap no matter how much sleep i have had the night before, then when i get up i really dont feel like doin nething but sitting on the couch and watchin tv.. when really i have all kinds of shit i need to study for..
have a history test tomarrow which i am not at all ready for and i kno that i need to study but i just cant get myself to do it.. i just dont even kno where to start.. so i thinkin of skippin the class and hoping the teacher will forget and i wont have to make it up.. actually this happened last quarter with the same teacher so it might just happen..
also i still need to deal with brewed.. i dont think i work there ne more.. but i need to go in and talk to the manager.. but i keep putting that off... grr.. i just hate life right now :(
ne ways i think thats all, heres to a better day tomarrow?