Rock and a Hard Place
No not me. Justin. I feel really bad becuase i just made him feel like shit, which was not what i wanted to do at all. Last night was John's birthday, so they all went out and of course got totally shit faced, which is fine.. whatever go have fun its your best buds birthday i would do the same if i was 21. But since I am not i got to go to school and then come home and do shit all evening, which also didnt bother me. The thing that did bother me was that he didn't call me or text me, all night long. So as a result i was up all night long worrying about him. When i told him all this he had a good point, if you were that worried then why not call? I dunno. I just didn't want to seem like a bitchy girlfriend who can't let her man out of her site, good reason right? So yes, i was never mad just a little worried that he didnt write or call. He is a big boy though and I really dont want to make him feel like he cant go and have fun with his friends without calling and checking in with me. I am being a hypocrite.
On to the next thing, also about Justin, wierd.
Mike's girlfriend, Hollie, somehow got a pair of really good tickets to tomarrow's Blazer game. I mean I'm talking eight rows off the floor good. Neither one of them want to go. So Mike asked Justin if he wanted to go. This is good. Well the bad thing is, he did this in front of both me and John, well guess who wants to go to the game... me and John. Keep in mind I have never been to a Blazer game and have been telling Justin that i want to go to one for a long time, also i am his girlfriend. But also on the other hand, it was John's birthday yesterday and they are both huge basketball freaks. John would love to go and have that great of seats, maybe appreciate it more. But so would I, I would have a blast. Another thing is, John and Justin and other people have been planning to go to the blazer game on Thursday ight for forever. So that means that i should go on Wednesday, right? Well when i told Justin this he said that John has to pay for that one. So who is Justin going to ask to go with him... that my friends is the rock and the hard place. I wish that i could tell him to go with John and have a great time and i wouldn't care. But the truth is, i would care and i would be mad.
So I told Justin this, after he drug it out of me and it made him feel like shit. Which isnt what i wanted to do at all. If I hadn't told him then he would have worried about what was wrong with me, it is obvious when i am upset. So then i tell him and now he feels like an ass, no matter who he brings.
Also, we have a thing on saturday nights i go over there we hang out and i spend the night we hang out all day on Sunday til i go to work at four. Well, on Saturday night he tells me that he is going to go snowboarding with some friends. Which kinda bums me out, but oh well. We can still hang out that night. Well he tells me tonight that they are going Sat night. This is just another thing that adds on to the snowball of everthing else.
I spent the entire weeked with Justin and it was great. We ran errands, he made me breakfast, I did laundry and cleaned, and it just felt so right. I couldn't wait til October when we live together. Then Something like this happends and it makes me scared about what might happen to us if we did live together. I dunno It's just such a big step, i mean living together is just like getting married. Do i want that? When I am barely 20. Sometimes i think that it just seems right and I am ready, then others i have no idea.
I guess only time will tell. \
goodnight all
On to the next thing, also about Justin, wierd.
Mike's girlfriend, Hollie, somehow got a pair of really good tickets to tomarrow's Blazer game. I mean I'm talking eight rows off the floor good. Neither one of them want to go. So Mike asked Justin if he wanted to go. This is good. Well the bad thing is, he did this in front of both me and John, well guess who wants to go to the game... me and John. Keep in mind I have never been to a Blazer game and have been telling Justin that i want to go to one for a long time, also i am his girlfriend. But also on the other hand, it was John's birthday yesterday and they are both huge basketball freaks. John would love to go and have that great of seats, maybe appreciate it more. But so would I, I would have a blast. Another thing is, John and Justin and other people have been planning to go to the blazer game on Thursday ight for forever. So that means that i should go on Wednesday, right? Well when i told Justin this he said that John has to pay for that one. So who is Justin going to ask to go with him... that my friends is the rock and the hard place. I wish that i could tell him to go with John and have a great time and i wouldn't care. But the truth is, i would care and i would be mad.
So I told Justin this, after he drug it out of me and it made him feel like shit. Which isnt what i wanted to do at all. If I hadn't told him then he would have worried about what was wrong with me, it is obvious when i am upset. So then i tell him and now he feels like an ass, no matter who he brings.
Also, we have a thing on saturday nights i go over there we hang out and i spend the night we hang out all day on Sunday til i go to work at four. Well, on Saturday night he tells me that he is going to go snowboarding with some friends. Which kinda bums me out, but oh well. We can still hang out that night. Well he tells me tonight that they are going Sat night. This is just another thing that adds on to the snowball of everthing else.
I spent the entire weeked with Justin and it was great. We ran errands, he made me breakfast, I did laundry and cleaned, and it just felt so right. I couldn't wait til October when we live together. Then Something like this happends and it makes me scared about what might happen to us if we did live together. I dunno It's just such a big step, i mean living together is just like getting married. Do i want that? When I am barely 20. Sometimes i think that it just seems right and I am ready, then others i have no idea.
I guess only time will tell. \
goodnight all