Prom.. continued.. the 2nd of many
Just to ease the confussion my last entry may have left some people with. No Matt and I aren't an item, nor are we a couple. We are still simply friends, for now anyways. There has always been a thin line between our friendship and possibly having some other feelings. We just can never figure it out what exaclty we are, so we always leave it at just that, friends.. or good friends rather. I don't know how long that title will satisfy what Iwe are though. I mean already thinking of matt as just a good friend, doesn't sound right, it's just not right for what we are. I have always heard girls talk about how they have this male best frined and they think that they like eachother, but are afraid to take it to the next level becuase they dont want to loose the awesome friendship that they have. I never understood that, to me its always been friends are friends, and crushes are crushes.
But that is exactly what I am feeling. We could be a couple but what if that dont work out? Then will we break up and never talk? If that happend I would then be out of yet another friendship. I really dont think that I can do that, or maybe I just don't really want to find out if I could? I have lost a lot in this past year. I really dont want to lose anymore unless it is completly nessecary. A good question was brought up tonight in our nigtly conversation, what would change if we were a couple? I answered, "prolly not much at all." I mean we are everything thing that a good couple needs to be. Without the show of affection. I really don't know.
It was wierd today, we went and got ice cream. It was lots of fun, we ate our ice cream and chatted. But that wasn't anything out the the norm. What was, was that we gave eachother the look. Not a look that just friends give eachother, it was the do i dare say, I love you look? Not sure what it was. I don't know if I can go that far. But it wasn't a look that you give to ur best friend, it was somethimg more then that. Maybe, I am just reading to far into something that was just a glance deep into eachother's eyes.. But then again s that something that friends do ? Not sure..
But that is exactly what I am feeling. We could be a couple but what if that dont work out? Then will we break up and never talk? If that happend I would then be out of yet another friendship. I really dont think that I can do that, or maybe I just don't really want to find out if I could? I have lost a lot in this past year. I really dont want to lose anymore unless it is completly nessecary. A good question was brought up tonight in our nigtly conversation, what would change if we were a couple? I answered, "prolly not much at all." I mean we are everything thing that a good couple needs to be. Without the show of affection. I really don't know.
It was wierd today, we went and got ice cream. It was lots of fun, we ate our ice cream and chatted. But that wasn't anything out the the norm. What was, was that we gave eachother the look. Not a look that just friends give eachother, it was the do i dare say, I love you look? Not sure what it was. I don't know if I can go that far. But it wasn't a look that you give to ur best friend, it was somethimg more then that. Maybe, I am just reading to far into something that was just a glance deep into eachother's eyes.. But then again s that something that friends do ? Not sure..