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its gotten to the point where if i dont fall asleep out of exhaustion i dont sleep
im really bad at taking care of myself
if i had alcohol id be drunk right now, so i guess its for the best that im broke
my room is a mess
my head is a mess
my life is a mess
why isnt ari talking to me, shes out drinking with cody and some other random kids
i need some company
i need to be out of my own head
melatonin or no doz i cant decide
i dont want to work ever again
i dont want to do anything ever

ergh...
at least i have my new hoodie