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It's been bothering my mind for a while. I'm gonna let it flow.
So we've all read those "high fantasy" stories. I remember how much I wished for something like that. Adventure. War. Magery. Fireballs. We are all like that at some point in time. We get all those wannabe angels and vampires. One of my friends, who is a vampire who yes needs blood but does need it as much as some might because she simply feeds off emotions was in a conversation with a wannabe vampire. That wannabe no longer wanted to be after that conversation. I also remember running into a person who claimed to be an Angel. We talked, this person and I and their whole belief fell apart and all I did was ask questions.
I just wish the people understood that, though it is not terrible, it's not all cut out to be. I wish they did, but I can't and wouldn't change their opinion. I don't hate the life I live. But it wasn't and isn't as I would have thought, as a 10 year old, it would be. Or as I thought I would be as 13. But I have seen so many people back out, frightened, or in disbelief or in some other emotion (not always the reason I know, but to line up a basic). I hold no grudge and would do all I can to assist others who really feel it.
As I fight, as I heal, as I just do what I do, I realized...this life was not all that it was expected to be. I remember that two hour I fight I was in the astral...I couldn't believe myself. It's not that it sucks, I'm just one of those people who are meant to be like this. On those so called frontlines. I remember someone telling me don't do this and don't do that. I don't think they realized, this is the way it is "supposed" to be. I agreed to do this before going into this life and so this really is not fate. Oh, it has it ups and downs. But this life is not as cut out as people would think. This life I lead is not as "cool" as people would think. It's something entirely different. I'm called to what I do and I simply don't mind it, most of the time. I know too that not everybody is like this, not every path is like this, but a path like this is not what people believe. I don't see my life as a fantasy, or a story, or a dream. I just want people to know that, I want them to understand. I want everyone to understand.
So we've all read those "high fantasy" stories. I remember how much I wished for something like that. Adventure. War. Magery. Fireballs. We are all like that at some point in time. We get all those wannabe angels and vampires. One of my friends, who is a vampire who yes needs blood but does need it as much as some might because she simply feeds off emotions was in a conversation with a wannabe vampire. That wannabe no longer wanted to be after that conversation. I also remember running into a person who claimed to be an Angel. We talked, this person and I and their whole belief fell apart and all I did was ask questions.
I just wish the people understood that, though it is not terrible, it's not all cut out to be. I wish they did, but I can't and wouldn't change their opinion. I don't hate the life I live. But it wasn't and isn't as I would have thought, as a 10 year old, it would be. Or as I thought I would be as 13. But I have seen so many people back out, frightened, or in disbelief or in some other emotion (not always the reason I know, but to line up a basic). I hold no grudge and would do all I can to assist others who really feel it.
As I fight, as I heal, as I just do what I do, I realized...this life was not all that it was expected to be. I remember that two hour I fight I was in the astral...I couldn't believe myself. It's not that it sucks, I'm just one of those people who are meant to be like this. On those so called frontlines. I remember someone telling me don't do this and don't do that. I don't think they realized, this is the way it is "supposed" to be. I agreed to do this before going into this life and so this really is not fate. Oh, it has it ups and downs. But this life is not as cut out as people would think. This life I lead is not as "cool" as people would think. It's something entirely different. I'm called to what I do and I simply don't mind it, most of the time. I know too that not everybody is like this, not every path is like this, but a path like this is not what people believe. I don't see my life as a fantasy, or a story, or a dream. I just want people to know that, I want them to understand. I want everyone to understand.