I hate to be like this.
I hate to be like this. I want this journal to be different from the other. But I have to write this...for my sanity...for my saftey.
"I know your pretty fine. You don't need an emotional support anymore. Yo ucan walk on your own legs. I know you can. So, what I need now is only to let you do so. But I still do trust you will be able to handle anything on your own way. My dear...by knowing that I just wish you good luck and take care...as I know you will."
That's what he said! And he walked out...of my life. There is a bond that he and I have and it just shatttered and slapped me in the face. Besides saying goodbye, he did, just that, shattered the bond. It hurts to much....and I can't stop crying and I am struggling, struggling so hard.
And now in my head I am screaming...."I HATE YOU AND I DO NOT WANT YOU BACK IN MY LIFE! I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU! YOU ARE NOT MY ALLY! YOU ARE NOT MY FRIEND! DO NOT COME BACK INTO MY LIFE! I WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU ANYMORE!"
He's been a blessing....but he has been a complete and utter curse. Oh wait, I forgot. It's the Council's fault. They even admitted it. They said they did not give their approval of him. So there are two parts of me. One part of me is crying...the other part is pissed of at the Council. And now is bent on defying them.
"I know your pretty fine. You don't need an emotional support anymore. Yo ucan walk on your own legs. I know you can. So, what I need now is only to let you do so. But I still do trust you will be able to handle anything on your own way. My dear...by knowing that I just wish you good luck and take care...as I know you will."
That's what he said! And he walked out...of my life. There is a bond that he and I have and it just shatttered and slapped me in the face. Besides saying goodbye, he did, just that, shattered the bond. It hurts to much....and I can't stop crying and I am struggling, struggling so hard.
And now in my head I am screaming...."I HATE YOU AND I DO NOT WANT YOU BACK IN MY LIFE! I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU! YOU ARE NOT MY ALLY! YOU ARE NOT MY FRIEND! DO NOT COME BACK INTO MY LIFE! I WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU ANYMORE!"
He's been a blessing....but he has been a complete and utter curse. Oh wait, I forgot. It's the Council's fault. They even admitted it. They said they did not give their approval of him. So there are two parts of me. One part of me is crying...the other part is pissed of at the Council. And now is bent on defying them.