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lol.... what can I say about my life? Stressful, I feel like friends hate me now, and I've just been really grouchy lately. I also found out that so many people think I'm a lesbian, and two of my closest friends can't tell when I'm acting stupid just for the hell of it. Everyone knows that I act like a child most the time, but they shouldn't mistake me for truly acting and thinking like a child. I know people say that they treat you depending on how you act... but.... *sigh* I don't know.
I want to stop being all hyper and stuff, but when the time comes, I go back to my defensive childish state. I want to be strong, but... I'm just in so much pain for reasons I can't say, and I don't want others to worry. How can people worry if they think you're happy and hyper, right?
It's not that I don't want to "grow up" as some people would say, I feel way more mature than I appear, it's just that when I show it... it gets so lonely. Then I go back to being childish again, it's my protective little shell...
I want to stop being all hyper and stuff, but when the time comes, I go back to my defensive childish state. I want to be strong, but... I'm just in so much pain for reasons I can't say, and I don't want others to worry. How can people worry if they think you're happy and hyper, right?
It's not that I don't want to "grow up" as some people would say, I feel way more mature than I appear, it's just that when I show it... it gets so lonely. Then I go back to being childish again, it's my protective little shell...