whine alert
more whining abound.
changing my meds. trying to go on a lower dose of something that I'm on too high of a dose to begin with. maybe I went down too fast - it is a 75 mg reduction. but it's driving me crazy. I see my new therapist tomorrow morning... that's good I guess. I'm afraid of breaking down in school. and I want to be able to be on a lower dose of this stuff, and maybe a higher dose of something else... I dunno. it seems like if I'm on 300 mg of something and still struggling, why should I be on it? I know I need more time for it to adjust. so I'm gonna do that, obviously. but it's still bugging me. I don't know how long I can wait. it's ben's birthday tomorrow; I want to make it special and not be a crying mess. kee-rist, I just want to be back to normal already. it's been months. I hate it. I really miss not being depressed.
changing my meds. trying to go on a lower dose of something that I'm on too high of a dose to begin with. maybe I went down too fast - it is a 75 mg reduction. but it's driving me crazy. I see my new therapist tomorrow morning... that's good I guess. I'm afraid of breaking down in school. and I want to be able to be on a lower dose of this stuff, and maybe a higher dose of something else... I dunno. it seems like if I'm on 300 mg of something and still struggling, why should I be on it? I know I need more time for it to adjust. so I'm gonna do that, obviously. but it's still bugging me. I don't know how long I can wait. it's ben's birthday tomorrow; I want to make it special and not be a crying mess. kee-rist, I just want to be back to normal already. it's been months. I hate it. I really miss not being depressed.