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did you ever just feel like crying & smiling ..& laughing all at the same time.
everything in your life is going so good, and you're so happy; and then you turn the corner, and find that everything else is a total trainwreck. there's too much damage, & you don't want to clean it up. you'd rather just stand there, and watch.
that's how i feel. i know what's ahead of me, & what's behind me. and it's STILL the same thing. it's never going to end, because i don't want it to. i don't want the good part to end, and as odd as this may sound .. i don't want the bad part to end either. because the bad part's going to go away, and i .. want to keep as much as possible. i want to hold on to as much as i possibly can.
all of this is just staring at me right in the face ; and i'm doing nothing about it.
why me ?
everything in your life is going so good, and you're so happy; and then you turn the corner, and find that everything else is a total trainwreck. there's too much damage, & you don't want to clean it up. you'd rather just stand there, and watch.
that's how i feel. i know what's ahead of me, & what's behind me. and it's STILL the same thing. it's never going to end, because i don't want it to. i don't want the good part to end, and as odd as this may sound .. i don't want the bad part to end either. because the bad part's going to go away, and i .. want to keep as much as possible. i want to hold on to as much as i possibly can.
all of this is just staring at me right in the face ; and i'm doing nothing about it.
why me ?