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I feel really fucking awful at the moment. Sweat and tears. I'm pulled between two ways of life. One is destroying me, I'm completely overpowered. All people, all anyone in my life wants to do, is have control over me and I'm just emotionally blackmailed into doing things and it's got so fucking blurry that I don't even know what I want anymore. I just want an easy life. I just want to be away really, so that I can't start any more arguments or be in the middle of stupid peoples fucking petty squabbling. I'm a stupid pathetic coward and I need to sort it.