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I spent the weekend in Ohio with Scott (who I'm living with for the summer) which I will post about probably tomorrow. But what I really want to talk about is last night Jared texted me. I had texted him about 3 weeks ago and he had texted me back a couple times that day. And I had called him a couple weeks ago coming back from EC, just to see what he had been up to, left a message and didn't get a response, so I was suprised when he texted me last night. here is how the conversation went.
Him-"Hey" (that was at 12:20am and I didn't wake up when it came through) so at 1:49 I got this one-"I wish I could go to sleep but I can't stop thinking of you"
Me-so then I responded (barely awake) "Hey yourself"
Him-"I need you, I want you, I'm sorry for everything. The hours move so slowly without you next to me, I miss you like crazy"
Me-"Have you been drinking tonight? what makes you miss me now since you've barely contacted me since you dumped me?" (I asked about the drinking because most the time when he said stuff like that he had been out drinking)
Him-"No, I have thought of you everyday"
Me-"So what do you want me to do about it?"
Him-"Take me back cause you love me and I love you" (I can't say that I love him yet, but I really care about him)
Me-"You never loved me when we were dating, so what changed?"
Him-"I was scared that you wouldn't love me the same and I miss you"
So I called him after that. I asked him to explain himself. He basically said that he thinks about me a lot and it's gotten progressively more and more and it's gotten to the breaking point (or something like that). I told him that he knows what I'm like and I will never be the girl who can just go up to people and start a conversation with them like he can. Also said that I still don't know where I'm going to end up. He said he doesn't know about himself either and it doesn't really matter where he goes. He seems to have really changed his whole thinking about the relationship since we have been apart.
So I think what I am probably going to do is tell him that I will take him back, but he has to show me that he really does care about me like he says he does (like call me/text me/come visit without me initiating it). And no more "Oh, I don't have a reason for not calling you back". So I think that is what I may do. Thoughts?
Him-"Hey" (that was at 12:20am and I didn't wake up when it came through) so at 1:49 I got this one-"I wish I could go to sleep but I can't stop thinking of you"
Me-so then I responded (barely awake) "Hey yourself"
Him-"I need you, I want you, I'm sorry for everything. The hours move so slowly without you next to me, I miss you like crazy"
Me-"Have you been drinking tonight? what makes you miss me now since you've barely contacted me since you dumped me?" (I asked about the drinking because most the time when he said stuff like that he had been out drinking)
Him-"No, I have thought of you everyday"
Me-"So what do you want me to do about it?"
Him-"Take me back cause you love me and I love you" (I can't say that I love him yet, but I really care about him)
Me-"You never loved me when we were dating, so what changed?"
Him-"I was scared that you wouldn't love me the same and I miss you"
So I called him after that. I asked him to explain himself. He basically said that he thinks about me a lot and it's gotten progressively more and more and it's gotten to the breaking point (or something like that). I told him that he knows what I'm like and I will never be the girl who can just go up to people and start a conversation with them like he can. Also said that I still don't know where I'm going to end up. He said he doesn't know about himself either and it doesn't really matter where he goes. He seems to have really changed his whole thinking about the relationship since we have been apart.
So I think what I am probably going to do is tell him that I will take him back, but he has to show me that he really does care about me like he says he does (like call me/text me/come visit without me initiating it). And no more "Oh, I don't have a reason for not calling you back". So I think that is what I may do. Thoughts?