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[equineaddict14]

He never said the words I'm gonna stop, but he stopped for a while, not totally, but mostly anyway...... I dont want it to stop right now....I want it stop sooon, but thats not gonna happen if this keeps happening.....Why should I be the one kept up at night crying over the fact that I want him back to the way he used to be? Why should I be kept up at night wondering whats gonna happen if he keeps it up? Why am I the one thats being so hurt over it....and no one really seems to see it? It just doesnt make sense to me....and it just keeps cutting me like a knife everytime I watch him do it over and over again..... And just when I was getting over what happened last time too.......Old cuts just keep getting deeper by the day now....

Why do I sit here and watch?
I know you've had it rough.
But, why do I sit here and watch
As you shut down and detach?

Why do you sit there and pretend?
You know I hate to see it.
So, why do you sit there and pretend
That you're the one so hurt?

I know you've had it rough
I know you have plenty to fear
But why do you do what you do?
It scares me half to death.

I know you can see me
And I know, somewhere you still care.
So why do you pretend
That what you do wont hurt me at all?

I know you've had it rough.
Trust me, I was there
But why do you do what you do?
It's tearing me apart.

You've broken me and cannot see that I need you more than ever - please, I miss you...