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i'm disconnected
from everyone
i realized today that i really don't think about anything.
i never actually figure out what my surroundings are.
i've never noticed what a friend is.
or what they're like.
my fists are swollen.
it hurts pretty badly.
but for some reason it's so numb at the same time.
i got accepted to UCSC.
my mom doesn't care.
all she had to say was, "why did you feel like cleaning today when the house looked like shit all week?"
she's mad at me.
very angry. very angry. very angry.
and i hate it.
i'm irrational right now.
every thought i have.
every action i am taking is going to be regretted.
tomorrow
monday
friday.
some time it will be regretted. we'll find out when.
as for now. i'm apathetic.
EDIT: i forgot to mention how my mother got angry because i mentioned her horses. "you have a problem with my horses now?"
PLEASE. I have a problem when your horseSSSS take away 300 dollars a month from us. When it's to the point that I can't eat because your horses need new toys, it's a bit pathetic, mother.
Yes. I have a fucking PROBLEM with TWO horses. But don't worry. I'll be gone before you know it.
from everyone
i realized today that i really don't think about anything.
i never actually figure out what my surroundings are.
i've never noticed what a friend is.
or what they're like.
my fists are swollen.
it hurts pretty badly.
but for some reason it's so numb at the same time.
i got accepted to UCSC.
my mom doesn't care.
all she had to say was, "why did you feel like cleaning today when the house looked like shit all week?"
she's mad at me.
very angry. very angry. very angry.
and i hate it.
i'm irrational right now.
every thought i have.
every action i am taking is going to be regretted.
tomorrow
monday
friday.
some time it will be regretted. we'll find out when.
as for now. i'm apathetic.
EDIT: i forgot to mention how my mother got angry because i mentioned her horses. "you have a problem with my horses now?"
PLEASE. I have a problem when your horseSSSS take away 300 dollars a month from us. When it's to the point that I can't eat because your horses need new toys, it's a bit pathetic, mother.
Yes. I have a fucking PROBLEM with TWO horses. But don't worry. I'll be gone before you know it.