What to do??
I totally thought i could deal with chris being out to sea honestly i did, but at this point in time i dont think i can do it. It's been so hard these past 2 weeks i've been here... i sit at home alone still looking for a job and takeing care of angie. maybe i wasnt ready to be a mom and or ment to be one right now. Its so hard to go job hunting and having to carry a lil one around with you everywhere you go. But dont get me wrong on all of this.... I honestly do love being married to chris, i love him with all my heart and yes i knew what i was getting into when i married him but i just didnt think it'd be all this hard. I hate when he's not home durning the week i only see him 2 days a week if im lucky and thats a big IF.. Not is it only hard on me but its hard on angela also. when she sees hime shes such a happy baby, Shes such a daddys girl already. and when chris is gona for the week she misses him so much as do i but like she knows when he's out to sea and like she knows the day that he comes home and its like i dont even have to say anything to her she just knows. but yea still i honestly dont think i can survie a whole deployment with out him.