it's been awhile

[epsiguy182]

hey. haven't updated cuz...well you know. boring week. but a girl who i didn't know who was pretty good looking at school said "you are really hot. i'm not even joking". she might have been saying that as a joke at my expense (most likely) but fuck it i can feel good for a second. oh lol and hen i went to the office and barnes said i've gotten taller. is it bad when the vice principle knows you so well? yeah but that's about it for the week. but why am i so anti-social? i never talk to people even though i want too and i've noticed that i just leave the "circle" of people who are talking without saying bye. why? i don't know. maybe cuz i don't think they care. but i'm afraid i'll make a fool of myself or be utterly boring. today i just had the urge to put my arm around someone and have them hold me. i just need to be held. to know i'm loved. i haven't been held since august. haven't had anything further then friends since then. i miss kendal. she's one of the few people that make me fell happy and loved. she makes me forget all my problems. even if it's just temprorary it makes me happy. well sorry this entry was completely pointless an boring. sorry. anyone wanna do something this weekend? i don't care who you are but i never do anything with friends. call me 696-4173. bye.
-Greg

"one thing that i've never said
i'm truly happy in my heart
and in my head"
-alkaline trio