oh, eljay.
Here we are again... another December, job situation still bleak. Freelance was BOOMING this summer.. now its dead as fuck. Finding myself taking gigs for INSULTINGLY LOW offers just to maintain some sanity. Not good for business.
I should be in Beijing right now getting into trouble... but relocating out there for a job/company that doesn't want to cough up the dough to relocate me isn't very kind to my wallet. Was really nice having that job interview via skype and flirting with some fresh-out-of-college english major though. Her speech was... about as stereotypical as you can imagine(but good). Almost like she's never talked to anyone whose native(all proper book-taught English, ZERO vernacular, slang, colloquialisms ect... was kind of refreshing, actually). I flattered her a bit and she called me out on it. Props to her for that. I was out of line to borderline-flirt with her like that... but she took it like a champ. Shes been emailing me lately... one seemed personal, asking me to send her urls to the photos and drawings I sent her during our interview and others asking me when I think Im going to be able to make it out there... I dont have the heart to tell her Im living LESS THAN check-to-check right now and will have to turn down the offer... but I mean... what the fuck. I gotta pay 3 months rent AND mandarin classes UP FRONT? Why not just take the money you would pay me for the job and deduct it for my first month? Sucks. I was SUPER amped to DISAPPEAR into another culture/country for 8 months and not tell anyone I had left until the week I got back.
...Im about 3 weeks away from working at McDonalds or something, if only to get away from my family. That whole "you're not working, so do all of these chores/run all of these errands" WHILE working on freelance trying to explain to people that I AM working... while in my pajamas at my drawing table gets harder by the week. Shits kind of enraging. Wish I had a laptop so I could go "work" at a book store or something just to hide from bullshit subservience. Took a break from a commission this morning to help rake leaves and run them to the dump... 3 trips. I doubt the Hanuka Brothers stop working for a client to do yard work out of guilt. loll.
Final straw though? Doing "favors" for ex/gfs... one's brother gave me a call wanting to do a photoshoot, didnt like my rates, tries to get his sister to Jew me down(that was DUMB offensive, im sorry) on my shit... AND you want to shoot it in a studio? That shit aint cheap you little jerk. I say this NOW... but if he waits it out a few weeks I'll probably cave and take his little bit of loot along with a 12 inch, toasted, shut the fuck up on flat bread.
Kind of wishing I hadn't half-burned those bridges with the Radical Comics guys. I mean... I've been dicked over on money before, and THEY broke theirs AND my invoice/contracts by ONE paying me a month and a half after they were supposed to, and TWO gyping me out of payment on 3 pages... and THREE not sending me copies of my issue until.. shit, until I went public on their deviantart page about how it had been over a YEAR and I still hadn't gotten them... then POOF, on my door step 4 days later. Funny how that shit works... I say this NOW... but that little $100 a page rate would be LOVELY on the regular. If I hadnt shit on them I mightve weaseled my way into a relationship in which my car would be payed off and I'd be living in my own place. Shit, 3k a month(actually it was 2200 for a week and a half of work! fuck ME) just for inking pages?? That'd be fucking awesome right now.
But what was I supposed to do? Just shut up and HOPE they would be professional without saying anything about them breaching their own shit? Bah, that was a year and a half ago, I have no beef with them... other than being in a position where having their money in my hand would be amazing and complaining about it at every opportunity I get lol.
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ps - This Moebius scans tumblr is my SHIT <3
I should be in Beijing right now getting into trouble... but relocating out there for a job/company that doesn't want to cough up the dough to relocate me isn't very kind to my wallet. Was really nice having that job interview via skype and flirting with some fresh-out-of-college english major though. Her speech was... about as stereotypical as you can imagine(but good). Almost like she's never talked to anyone whose native(all proper book-taught English, ZERO vernacular, slang, colloquialisms ect... was kind of refreshing, actually). I flattered her a bit and she called me out on it. Props to her for that. I was out of line to borderline-flirt with her like that... but she took it like a champ. Shes been emailing me lately... one seemed personal, asking me to send her urls to the photos and drawings I sent her during our interview and others asking me when I think Im going to be able to make it out there... I dont have the heart to tell her Im living LESS THAN check-to-check right now and will have to turn down the offer... but I mean... what the fuck. I gotta pay 3 months rent AND mandarin classes UP FRONT? Why not just take the money you would pay me for the job and deduct it for my first month? Sucks. I was SUPER amped to DISAPPEAR into another culture/country for 8 months and not tell anyone I had left until the week I got back.
...Im about 3 weeks away from working at McDonalds or something, if only to get away from my family. That whole "you're not working, so do all of these chores/run all of these errands" WHILE working on freelance trying to explain to people that I AM working... while in my pajamas at my drawing table gets harder by the week. Shits kind of enraging. Wish I had a laptop so I could go "work" at a book store or something just to hide from bullshit subservience. Took a break from a commission this morning to help rake leaves and run them to the dump... 3 trips. I doubt the Hanuka Brothers stop working for a client to do yard work out of guilt. loll.
Final straw though? Doing "favors" for ex/gfs... one's brother gave me a call wanting to do a photoshoot, didnt like my rates, tries to get his sister to Jew me down(that was DUMB offensive, im sorry) on my shit... AND you want to shoot it in a studio? That shit aint cheap you little jerk. I say this NOW... but if he waits it out a few weeks I'll probably cave and take his little bit of loot along with a 12 inch, toasted, shut the fuck up on flat bread.
Kind of wishing I hadn't half-burned those bridges with the Radical Comics guys. I mean... I've been dicked over on money before, and THEY broke theirs AND my invoice/contracts by ONE paying me a month and a half after they were supposed to, and TWO gyping me out of payment on 3 pages... and THREE not sending me copies of my issue until.. shit, until I went public on their deviantart page about how it had been over a YEAR and I still hadn't gotten them... then POOF, on my door step 4 days later. Funny how that shit works... I say this NOW... but that little $100 a page rate would be LOVELY on the regular. If I hadnt shit on them I mightve weaseled my way into a relationship in which my car would be payed off and I'd be living in my own place. Shit, 3k a month(actually it was 2200 for a week and a half of work! fuck ME) just for inking pages?? That'd be fucking awesome right now.
But what was I supposed to do? Just shut up and HOPE they would be professional without saying anything about them breaching their own shit? Bah, that was a year and a half ago, I have no beef with them... other than being in a position where having their money in my hand would be amazing and complaining about it at every opportunity I get lol.
blah blob log...
ps - This Moebius scans tumblr is my SHIT <3