its a certain tragedy
so its like a cycle and it wont end. i have to make this stop. i cant keep this shit up or im gonna be hurtin forever. he keeps tellin me its over, then i appologize and everythings cool. last night was bad and i thought it was really over so i accepted it. then he thought about it and appologized. i refuse to appologize for something i didnt do. its good that he's finally caught on to that. he says i seem less than interested but i am.. i love this kid. im bad with showing my feelings, just ask dave. we had to breakup for me to see that i really did like him and that i did wanna be with him. jaret says that he cant believe i would ever think that he used me, cuz he didt, but its not my fault. ive never not been used by a guy.. even dave did it and he doesnt realiuze he used me cuz i let him, i never said anything about it cuz i thought that was ok. he actually said "if u give me head, i'll consider taking u back" and i wish i hadnt now. he wasnt worth it. then we brokeup again and it sucked a lot. so i should have kept my mouth to myself and just accepted the breakup. but w/e, whats done is done. i wonder how many times jarets gonna tell me that its over before we can just be together. thats all i want, is something solid. this relationship is killing me cuz i dont wanna piss him off for fear of him sayin its over and actually meaning it. i hope we stay together forever. he makes me so happy. hes perfect. i love him :)