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the closest people to me i cannot stand
the people that i want close probably think i hate them
why is it so hard to become good friends with somebody
why are we so defensive when we meet
oh well
everybody that ive ever shared my thoughts and feelings with, you mean something to me. or at least meant someting to me.

friendship and deep conversations and those sorts of things dont really last very long, obviously.

i think everyone is mutually using each other
like leeches
we use each other to get through this so called hard part in our life
we need reassurance that we arent losers or freaks or ugly or fat
and thats all friendship is
i believe we are animals

i believe in reincarnation

i dont know why

i dont kow if i believe in love

as much as i believe in infatuation

i believe it has been about a year since i was comfortable with myself and my friends and i was happy

getting girls is easy. you just have to know how to talk.
it really is that easy.

getting guys is easy too, dont give me shit girls

i believe i am a hypocrite, a contradiction, a double standard

i believe i am insignificant, and my existence effects no one outside of a few miles of where i live

and with that said why do we live

who cares

i dont know how i feel about sex

do what you want to do i guess

i was a bad boyfriend

maybe because only half of me belives in relationships

if anyone reads all of this, well then, that was a good waste of your time