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I hate being left out, but it seems that's all I am anymore...Today Curtis, Rone and David just talked as if I wasn't there most of lunch. I miss sitting with Curtis and talking about whatever, but now I feel like I can't do that because people are around and I'm so picky about who I want to join conversations with because I've been such a bitch lately. So rather than speak up and say something is bothering me, I just sit and take it, let other people live their lives while I watch mine float by.
I know I'm just whining about it and that I can do something about it. I got a job, one that I like even. Curtis and I have counseling this week, so hopefully that will help. I'm going to Rocky Horror with him tonite and not inviting anyone to come with us so it can be a "date". I've been trying to help things get better, but it seems as though for every two really good days, there is an equally bad day. As if living "two steps forward, two steps backward".
Things really are getting better now that I think about it. Before it was a large portion of every day that turned out horribly, and that's not the case anymore. I am just bored and felt like writing something, and it makes sense that I wrote depressing stuff. As Adam Carola said, happy people don't write because they don't have anything to write about. That's why it seems everyones life sucks, because you aren't inspired to write how good your day was, you just keep living it, but if you are having a bad day, you can take a step out of it and write about it.
Ah relief, I feel much better...but now history, agh, I wonder when I will start my term paper P-) Laurielou862-I'm interested in her journal...don't want to forget the username, haha
I know I'm just whining about it and that I can do something about it. I got a job, one that I like even. Curtis and I have counseling this week, so hopefully that will help. I'm going to Rocky Horror with him tonite and not inviting anyone to come with us so it can be a "date". I've been trying to help things get better, but it seems as though for every two really good days, there is an equally bad day. As if living "two steps forward, two steps backward".
Things really are getting better now that I think about it. Before it was a large portion of every day that turned out horribly, and that's not the case anymore. I am just bored and felt like writing something, and it makes sense that I wrote depressing stuff. As Adam Carola said, happy people don't write because they don't have anything to write about. That's why it seems everyones life sucks, because you aren't inspired to write how good your day was, you just keep living it, but if you are having a bad day, you can take a step out of it and write about it.
Ah relief, I feel much better...but now history, agh, I wonder when I will start my term paper P-) Laurielou862-I'm interested in her journal...don't want to forget the username, haha