hmmm
So I started out bitching yesterday, but that wasn't all. It got better and worse and lots of odd things happened. Overall, I didn't feel good or bad about it, it just was. I made a topiary which I have neglected to pick up so that means it's trashed, and then I walked to the HS building to deal with the San Francisco trip, when Collier the teacher for that class just happens to walk by and tell me he needs me on that trip blah blah blah, so I'm first on a waiting list to go on the San Francisco trip.
Next thing I'm feeling pretty good I've got to rush to Art History though, so I cut through the union. Everytime I'm anywhere around there, I get paranoid that I'm going to run into Crystal everyone I see I imagine it's her, so after A month of this I decide I need to calm down it's not gonna be this moment. SO at that very moment I see her in the Bistro...an hour and a half later I'm going backwards through the union and I'm like it couldn't happen again she should be gone by now...she steps out pretty 5 feet in front of me...fuck so I slow down and go out the side door. I go to class I'm feeling a bit better, so I have to skip out of class half an hour early for an appointment across the street. I'm looking down at my feet like normal till I'm practically to the door, I look up when I reach the bottom of the steps there she fucking is again. I could nearly have walked into the back of her, and I see her reflection in the door...so yet again I flank the building.
I've never felt so many fucking emotions at one time, I mean honestly the thought of her can completely incapacitate me. Imagine seeing her it's just a large tumult of emotions. That one took me quite a while longer to shake off, cause I mean 3 times in a day, she had to have noticed me 1 of those times and how did that make her feel? Why do I still care? FUCK! so I go back and do drawings until 2 AM fortunately with some good people to distract me through most of it and some decent music.
So I call the ride service and the drunk ride service trying to get a ride home and none of them fucking answer. So at 2 AM in 24 degree weather, I walked home with my laptop. Let's just say I was scared, but honestly it wasn't too bad.
I finally talked to Mike today and I spanked some physics earlier in construction I'm kinda psyched about that.
Next thing I'm feeling pretty good I've got to rush to Art History though, so I cut through the union. Everytime I'm anywhere around there, I get paranoid that I'm going to run into Crystal everyone I see I imagine it's her, so after A month of this I decide I need to calm down it's not gonna be this moment. SO at that very moment I see her in the Bistro...an hour and a half later I'm going backwards through the union and I'm like it couldn't happen again she should be gone by now...she steps out pretty 5 feet in front of me...fuck so I slow down and go out the side door. I go to class I'm feeling a bit better, so I have to skip out of class half an hour early for an appointment across the street. I'm looking down at my feet like normal till I'm practically to the door, I look up when I reach the bottom of the steps there she fucking is again. I could nearly have walked into the back of her, and I see her reflection in the door...so yet again I flank the building.
I've never felt so many fucking emotions at one time, I mean honestly the thought of her can completely incapacitate me. Imagine seeing her it's just a large tumult of emotions. That one took me quite a while longer to shake off, cause I mean 3 times in a day, she had to have noticed me 1 of those times and how did that make her feel? Why do I still care? FUCK! so I go back and do drawings until 2 AM fortunately with some good people to distract me through most of it and some decent music.
So I call the ride service and the drunk ride service trying to get a ride home and none of them fucking answer. So at 2 AM in 24 degree weather, I walked home with my laptop. Let's just say I was scared, but honestly it wasn't too bad.
I finally talked to Mike today and I spanked some physics earlier in construction I'm kinda psyched about that.