words can not begin to describe...
Why are pointless projects so difficult to abandon?! Although you know that Sisyphus has a greater chance of pushing that rock up the hill without it rolling down, than you do at making it work, you still keep going. You converge endlessly towards something, but never reach it. I don't know which is worse, being consciously or unconsciously boneheaded. If unconscioulsy, then ignorance can be bliss, but if consciously, then you pick your own fate. I really should abandon this, well should have long ago, but as the text above suggests, I did not. Idiot.