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i have become someone that i hate, and i do not know how to change. now that i consider it i don't know if i have ever been happy with myself. i have lost all energy. it is gone.
i have surrendered myself so many times
i will have to fight to get it all back
instead of keeping a steady pace i have been crawling for so long. i have grown tired and sat down all the while everyone continues to pass me by.
it's become bearable. but when i touch my skin or stretch my back i can feel the knots. i wasn't born with knots.
i think about getting up most days. but the DISTANCE i fear is too great.
i will never catch up.
what difference does it make if i am ten feet from that gate or 10,000 if i will never make it inside? i can't bear it closing at my finger tips.
i have surrendered myself so many times
i will have to fight to get it all back
instead of keeping a steady pace i have been crawling for so long. i have grown tired and sat down all the while everyone continues to pass me by.
it's become bearable. but when i touch my skin or stretch my back i can feel the knots. i wasn't born with knots.
i think about getting up most days. but the DISTANCE i fear is too great.
i will never catch up.
what difference does it make if i am ten feet from that gate or 10,000 if i will never make it inside? i can't bear it closing at my finger tips.