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So, I definitly shouldn't be posting, I should be studying.. I have a Pre- Cal quiz tommorow and I missed Monday's class. But I've got a million things on my mind, so I've got to type it out.
Bryan and Kat broke up. And I've got mixed emotions about it. Our relationship is just so dysfunctional and I'm pretty sure that its going to go back to what it was before. And what the hell was that even? Uh, going out. Cuddling. Getting into jealous arguements by making underhanded comments about the other people we're seeing. Like we might as well be together or not be together. I guess only time will tell.
Speaking of relationships.. Josh and Brandi's seems like its failing and it breaks my heart. I love my brother to death, and to see him so depressed kills me. We were hanging out watching Juno and he suddenly breaks down crying. To see someone who you consider your rock, and your bestfriend, be so unsure and hurt, it kills me. I love Brandi like she's my sister, because shes always been more of a sister to me than Angela has been, and she does so much for Josh. Again, thats something that only time will tell.
It seems like I had such high hopes for 2009 but so far I've been fairly let down. Granted it's only been one month. But, dad has had health problems finding out he had diabetes and kidney stones. His relationship problems with Julie. Everyone's failing relationships.
I'm really confused about college. I do like Tech, and I know that i can try harder. I also know that going to UTC would be so much easier. I feel like I would have the ability to do better because I would be more relaxed and I wouldn't have so many loans, plus being able to work. All the same, I hate ever feeling like I'm a quitter, and by not staying here the entire time I'd consider that quitting. Blah.
On a happier note, I turn 19 next Friday! And I'm not completely sure whats going on for that. Maybe a party? Maybe dinner? Maybe nothing. All I want is a relaxing weekend and some coconut rum jello shooters. Not even getting drunk; I just like rum, duh.
Alas, I really should study.
Until later days.
Bryan and Kat broke up. And I've got mixed emotions about it. Our relationship is just so dysfunctional and I'm pretty sure that its going to go back to what it was before. And what the hell was that even? Uh, going out. Cuddling. Getting into jealous arguements by making underhanded comments about the other people we're seeing. Like we might as well be together or not be together. I guess only time will tell.
Speaking of relationships.. Josh and Brandi's seems like its failing and it breaks my heart. I love my brother to death, and to see him so depressed kills me. We were hanging out watching Juno and he suddenly breaks down crying. To see someone who you consider your rock, and your bestfriend, be so unsure and hurt, it kills me. I love Brandi like she's my sister, because shes always been more of a sister to me than Angela has been, and she does so much for Josh. Again, thats something that only time will tell.
It seems like I had such high hopes for 2009 but so far I've been fairly let down. Granted it's only been one month. But, dad has had health problems finding out he had diabetes and kidney stones. His relationship problems with Julie. Everyone's failing relationships.
I'm really confused about college. I do like Tech, and I know that i can try harder. I also know that going to UTC would be so much easier. I feel like I would have the ability to do better because I would be more relaxed and I wouldn't have so many loans, plus being able to work. All the same, I hate ever feeling like I'm a quitter, and by not staying here the entire time I'd consider that quitting. Blah.
On a happier note, I turn 19 next Friday! And I'm not completely sure whats going on for that. Maybe a party? Maybe dinner? Maybe nothing. All I want is a relaxing weekend and some coconut rum jello shooters. Not even getting drunk; I just like rum, duh.
Alas, I really should study.
Until later days.