why did i do this?
I volunteered to do biz baz cleanup - and it's biting me in the ass, already, not even two hours after doing my first attempt to get stuff done for it. Admittedly, I'm already in a pretty crappy mood, but still. Doesn't help that if the list is screwed up I'll feel responsible regardless of whether or not I am, and it's my name behind it now, and people will think I'm a moron.
Plus had a disagreement with Doug that remains disagreed, but we sort of smoothed over the unpleasantness, but Alex was also unhappy and I forgot to apologize to him. Ugh.
Also, I still think I might have some sort of social anxiety disorder on a mild enough level that it doesn't merit much of anything but enough that it can basically ruin my night.
Also, final crit early tomorrow, and I walked in on a crit today which was embarrassing and not good.
Plus I'm so entirely that dependent girl that I don't want to be. It's seriously a problem; I hate being that person that I don't want to be, and it just makes me unhappy.
I'd feel a lot better if I didn't have to sleep alone tonight. Even just cuddles. Stupid Worcester.
Plus had a disagreement with Doug that remains disagreed, but we sort of smoothed over the unpleasantness, but Alex was also unhappy and I forgot to apologize to him. Ugh.
Also, I still think I might have some sort of social anxiety disorder on a mild enough level that it doesn't merit much of anything but enough that it can basically ruin my night.
Also, final crit early tomorrow, and I walked in on a crit today which was embarrassing and not good.
Plus I'm so entirely that dependent girl that I don't want to be. It's seriously a problem; I hate being that person that I don't want to be, and it just makes me unhappy.
I'd feel a lot better if I didn't have to sleep alone tonight. Even just cuddles. Stupid Worcester.