So
I talked to Alex again today (my favorite Christian friend). We talked about a lot of good stuff, like the absence of god, god's desire to be in our lives, our own close-minded refusal to accept the possibility of god. Even while writting this I can picture you rolling your eyes, and thinking "that's silly." I would have said that too, but I'm trying to be open-minded. Too many of us who claim to be open-minded are really anything but.
So, after class today i'm going to a garden and talking to God. Maybe i'll get a response. As of this point I'm not even sure in which form that response could come. How could I differentiate his voice with my own conscience? However, i'm tring to eliminate all skepticism.
Why am I doing this? Well, I don't lose anything. However, I also don't believe I have anything to gain. I've never been one to speak in absolutes about anything, including the existence of God. That was his logical plea, but in his emotional plea he asked me to do it for his sake. So i'll oblige. That, and the fact that while we were talking he was excruciatingly beautiful. If he wasn't engaged (because he is bisexual) i'd have leaned over and kissed him. I'm trying to break free from my shackling structure.
Yes, I know these posts are rambling, but I refuse to go back and edit anything that I type. This is private journal, not a published(/able) one.
So, after class today i'm going to a garden and talking to God. Maybe i'll get a response. As of this point I'm not even sure in which form that response could come. How could I differentiate his voice with my own conscience? However, i'm tring to eliminate all skepticism.
Why am I doing this? Well, I don't lose anything. However, I also don't believe I have anything to gain. I've never been one to speak in absolutes about anything, including the existence of God. That was his logical plea, but in his emotional plea he asked me to do it for his sake. So i'll oblige. That, and the fact that while we were talking he was excruciatingly beautiful. If he wasn't engaged (because he is bisexual) i'd have leaned over and kissed him. I'm trying to break free from my shackling structure.
Yes, I know these posts are rambling, but I refuse to go back and edit anything that I type. This is private journal, not a published(/able) one.