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I'm tired of being tired.
I'm done with everything being the same.
I get bored and I just go to bed.
I want my car back.
And having two jobs blows, but when i don't work on the weekends. I'm bored.
Which just means I'm tired some more. And no matter when I go to bed, it's always hard to get up in the morning.
And it sounds stupid, but I miss school. I miss that it occupied my time, and forced me to have things to do. When I was never bored because I was always procrastinating.
But now I just feel like I'm procrastinating life and not doing something to be more important or to simply move forward. To get what I want. (When in reality, I have no idea what I want except to be happy, but I have no idea how to get myself there.)
I want to live some place new.
Meet new people.
Do something that I know will terrify me but I know I can only grow from experiences like that.
I don't know where I'm going.
I'm done with everything being the same.
I get bored and I just go to bed.
I want my car back.
And having two jobs blows, but when i don't work on the weekends. I'm bored.
Which just means I'm tired some more. And no matter when I go to bed, it's always hard to get up in the morning.
And it sounds stupid, but I miss school. I miss that it occupied my time, and forced me to have things to do. When I was never bored because I was always procrastinating.
But now I just feel like I'm procrastinating life and not doing something to be more important or to simply move forward. To get what I want. (When in reality, I have no idea what I want except to be happy, but I have no idea how to get myself there.)
I want to live some place new.
Meet new people.
Do something that I know will terrify me but I know I can only grow from experiences like that.
I don't know where I'm going.