resolve

[epiks13]

I want to have the  motivation to make that huge change in myself that makes me feel better and look better and to be healthy.
I don't want to be embarrassed of myself anymore.
No more soda.
No more cigarettes.
No more burgers or late night food.
Salad, lots and lots of salad and chicken.
Special k and fat free milk
no more biting my nails.
no more catching the bus in the parking lot.
I'll walk back to campus from Picotte when I have the time.
I'll drink so much water that I pee 50 times a day.
No more ice cream.
No more shit.
No more eating out.

I want to feel good about myself.
I want my feet to stop hurting.
I want my knees and hips to stop hurting.
I want to fit into clothes that I like.
I want to be able to shop at normal stores.
I want to have the self control to do this.
I want a pair of jeans to last me more than a few months.
I want to wear a dress.
I want to wear shorts.
I want to wear tank tops with nothing over them.
I want to look in the mirror and not hate what I see every morning.