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[epiks13]

I feel like I'm forgetting everything. It's almost as if my brain keeps stumbling and things are so blurry. I've been forgetting things, and then there's the headaches, dizziness, and the pain. I can't keep everything straight. Or maybe it's just this immense fear of graduating and not being able to do what they've been teaching me to do for the

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[phoenixxfaerie]

while i was in the wrong for not trying to get in touch with you both in the begining of summer and after the fact, you never once tried to get in touch with me either. does that mean u didnt care? i was making an adjustment. and it was more difficult that i anticipated and a lot of important things and ppl kinda got put to the side. but i didnt drop everyone i used to talk to in arizona. i still talk to and hang out with everyone i talked to while i was in az. your the only one thats staying mad at me for something ive appologized for. and thats your right. if u dont want to talk anymore thats fine. if its too late for me to try and salvage this, ok. im never on aim anymore and am hardly online and thats when we used to talk the most.
we are completely different ppl and thats perfectly fine and its fine if we dont have a super amazing friendship, but i never expected u to be so angry at me or dislike me the way you do. its hurtful.
if u dont want me to talk to you or be friends with you again just let me know and i'll leave you alone. i just thought being friends all these years i should try to make it better and at the very least stay friendly with you.

[epiks13]

I'm not mad. I'm pretty neutral about i, if it seems like I'm coming off angry I'm sorry, it's not meant to be. And I don't expect an apology, and I don't dislike you because in the long run I know you mean well with things that you do. And we weren't at an "unfriendly" stage, I wasn't mean to you, you weren't mean to me.

With the decisions that I've made in the past, I'm changed certain things. I'm not going to chase after people if I feel like they don't want to be my friend. I don't want to be that clingy person that people hate. We both had a big summer, with a lot of changes and crazy things, so maybe it just in the way of things.

If I wrote everything down here, it would be stupid and long, and I think that it's pointless to talk about it because it would just be the two of us going back and forth about things that can't be changed. Things can be done differently to make it not like that though, on both parts. So maybe just starting over would be a better spot to begin.

[phoenixxfaerie]

i think starting overs a good idea. theres no point revisiting things that have past and cant be changed. sorry i responded late. i dont check lj everyday.