Ugh.

[epigirl]

Everytime I get on here, I feel like I have so much to say. But then, when I get to what needs to be said, I just don't feel like saying it. Nice.

You might be wondering why I'm being so "childish" right now. I ran away. So childish.

I can't help it for one. I'm tired of my mom treating me like I'm shit and telling me that I'm worthless.

“Part of the job of being human is to consistently underestimate our effect on other people.”
-Lucy Grealy

And the thing is, my mom is only human, which is why I'm feeling so bad about leaving now. She has no idea where I am. I'm not sure if she's even worried. Honestly, I doubt it. But if she is, I'm sorry.

I don't like it that I cause anyone pain, no matter the damage they put me through. I can't help it. I know what it's like. Why put people through stuff that you yourself shouldn't go through?

I can't go back though. I need to be on my own. I need to get out of here. I could move to Columbus, but I'm afraid. But hey, if any one of you are looking for a roomie...holler.

I need to move, and I want to move, but there's one problem. There's this guy who I'm absolutely, positively in love with.

I don't want to lose something that doesn't happen to me very often.

Things were supposed to get easier.