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well i guess i can write, theres only 2 people on msn
which is odd but whatever
i think sara saved my sanity tonight
i felt so great to have someone to hold/hold me and just to be with
she's the best, and she's amazing and cool and everything else sugar-coated and cool.
i know she doesn't want a relationship and its understandable
i wouldn't want to pressure her into something like that
it was just very.....nice. tonight i mean.
i <3 her but somehow i understand why she can't date me right now and it's okay
maybe in a bit we will be able to, i can hope
as for trevor.... dude comes and tells me he's gay, i'm like 'okay'
then comes and does what i now realize was drunkenly hitting on me
then gets sick from alcohol and i lay him down on what i believe was whitney's parents bed
then he kisses me, which was weird because that was not at all what i had imagined for the first time i kiss a guy but we shan't get into that now
so then we go on a walk, hopefully to wake him up a bit and then he shoves his tongue in my mouth
and tries putting his hand in my pants i have to sort of shove him off me
i just, that was a little much for right after the first time i kissed a guy
and he hadn't even told anyone before he told me that night, apparently
and i feel bad for him, it's hard and confusing
but you don't just go shoving your tongue in other guy's mouths
did he just assume that because we're both attracted to guys that i like him?
he never even asked, he just kissed me
again, i'm not saying it was gross or disgusting or anything like that
just very unexpected and off-putting and i don't know
he gave me all this stuff about having been in love with me for a year and stuff and i pray it was the beer talking
because i certainly haven't been day-dreaming about him for a year
like....A YEAR! thats crazy.
in a year i've dated, harriet and marie, and made enought time to be terribly lonely
how could he like me for ALL THAT TIME! it's absurd and unrealistic and he was just drunk..... i hope
gah, i need to sleep before tom comes tommarow expecting me to play that four-sting thing in the basement
adios
-mike-
which is odd but whatever
i think sara saved my sanity tonight
i felt so great to have someone to hold/hold me and just to be with
she's the best, and she's amazing and cool and everything else sugar-coated and cool.
i know she doesn't want a relationship and its understandable
i wouldn't want to pressure her into something like that
it was just very.....nice. tonight i mean.
i <3 her but somehow i understand why she can't date me right now and it's okay
maybe in a bit we will be able to, i can hope
as for trevor.... dude comes and tells me he's gay, i'm like 'okay'
then comes and does what i now realize was drunkenly hitting on me
then gets sick from alcohol and i lay him down on what i believe was whitney's parents bed
then he kisses me, which was weird because that was not at all what i had imagined for the first time i kiss a guy but we shan't get into that now
so then we go on a walk, hopefully to wake him up a bit and then he shoves his tongue in my mouth
and tries putting his hand in my pants i have to sort of shove him off me
i just, that was a little much for right after the first time i kissed a guy
and he hadn't even told anyone before he told me that night, apparently
and i feel bad for him, it's hard and confusing
but you don't just go shoving your tongue in other guy's mouths
did he just assume that because we're both attracted to guys that i like him?
he never even asked, he just kissed me
again, i'm not saying it was gross or disgusting or anything like that
just very unexpected and off-putting and i don't know
he gave me all this stuff about having been in love with me for a year and stuff and i pray it was the beer talking
because i certainly haven't been day-dreaming about him for a year
like....A YEAR! thats crazy.
in a year i've dated, harriet and marie, and made enought time to be terribly lonely
how could he like me for ALL THAT TIME! it's absurd and unrealistic and he was just drunk..... i hope
gah, i need to sleep before tom comes tommarow expecting me to play that four-sting thing in the basement
adios
-mike-