20 hours to blast off
i did this in 2007, and then sort of forgot about it again till now, but oh my gosh, so much happened this year that i never want to forget. plus it seems like a lot of people are eager to get 2010 over and done with, and i'm sort of clinging to the last couple of hours of 2010, being all, DON'T LEAVE ME~
1. What did you do in 2010 that you'd never done before?
well, let's see. i moved halfway across the globe. lived on my own. called a place not singapore home, and meant it. travelled 6 weeks with captureinsanity all over the states (and met half my usa flisters)! HUGGED MICHAEL CASTRO *________* HIGHLIGHT OF THE YEAR. sat on a helicopter. threw up in a helicopter. watched rafa play live. wrote epic mpreg, bwahaha. forgot my dad's birthday (I AM SO FAILY) i just -- grew up, i think, and while i like to think i've been doing that every year, this year posed especially difficult questions, things that i'm going to be working on for a while, so that's new. choosing myself over my family. that was new, too.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
when i did this meme in 2007, i said, no, i did not, and i will not, because i've given up on them. sticking to that!
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
well, some of them are close? does that count?
4. Did anyone close to you die?
yes. my uncle. and i didn't come back for the funeral, which will likely go down as the biggest regret of my life. always.
5. What countries did you visit?
the staaaaaates. canada. hong kong. macau, i think? thailand! ENGLAND (THANK YOU FOR REMINDING ME PIXIEBEANZ, I AM AN IDIOT.)
6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?
certainty. where i'm going, what i'm doing, who i am. i need to work on that, but i think - i hope - it'll come.
7. What dates from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
may 15th - michael castro, baby. 4th january - the day i flew to canada. 22/23rd november - the day my family came home. it's been a full year of special occasions.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
definitely canada. just realizing that i can do it, i can be on my own. that was pretty neat.
9. What was your biggest failure?
being selfish, the most selfish i've been in my entire life. and it's not something i want to repeat again, ever.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
i've had the worst flus/coughs/sorethroats this year, i don't know why or how. but other than that i've been surprisingly well.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
oh man, haha, the first class ticket to new york? tickets to michael castro's concert? ...actually, i'm gonna have to go with my hooker heels. they started me down a path of shoe addiction, and there is no turning back.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
my own. my parents'. my brother's. he's grown up so much, it's kind of overwhelming at times. i remember sitting in my kitchen in canada, looking at my phone and thinking, oh god, i'm not there, who's going to look out for papa? and i texted my brother and just told him you're in charge now, you're old enough, i'm trusting you to make sure he's okay, because i can't right now. and when he promised he would, and told me everything would be okay, that i shouldn't worry because he'd handle it--i just sat in the kitchen and sobbed a little. it's been - yeah, it's kind of been a breathtaking transformation.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
a friend's. she just - wasn't there, when i needed her to be. she didn't listen, she was thoughtless, she made me feel terrible for something that i couldn't control. those were dark days.
14. Where did most of your money go?
travelling, no questions asked. i've only spent six months in singapore this year. that's kind of a neat statistic.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. what did i NOT get excited about, oh man. there was mcas, and inception, and 1d, the social network, the best fic in the world from paitac, ciudad and bloodbelieve, there was being away from home on my own for the first time, going on a first date (HAHA, except for how it ended, whatever), getting to see nyc, IFUCKINGHOP. unf. just--a whole slew of things, man. what can i say, i live up to my namesake.
16. What song will always remind you of 2010?
probably love the way you lie. idk. anything off archie's second album. anything off kaleidoscope heart.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? i... am a lot more confused, i think. which is now where i thought i'd be.
b) thinner or fatter? oh god, so much fatter, i don't even--THE AMOUNT OF SHIT I'VE EATEN THIS YEAR. it is ridiculous. i am not proud.
c) richer or poorer? poorer. broke. it is a sad state of affairs.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
i'll have to think about that one. i want to say focus on where my career is going, but that would be a lie.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
see: 18.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
i spent it with my family, just soaking them in, listening to christmas music. what a way to go.
22. Did you fall in love in 2010?
with my fandoms, yes. with dileep rao. with niall horan. and, most importantly, with canada.
23. How many one-night stands?
zero. sadness.
24. What was your favorite TV program?
this is--not as tough as it would be, any other year. right now i'd have to go with vampire diaries, drop dead diva, and the defenders, just based on how much i look forward to the show every week.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
maybe. i am too tired to recall right now.
26. What was the best book you read?
a better question is have i read a book this year? and i believe the answer is no, no i have not.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
this is a good question! hmm. the sing-off! street corner symphony stole my heart. so did committed. just amazing, solid performances all round.
28. What did you want and get?
just about everything, i think. i got time away from my family, my own room, a chance to see the united states, i spent time with my friends and my family, i took baby steps away from overly-devoting myself to school, even during the school term. just--yeah. it's been a good year.
29. What did you want and not get?
magical good grades and clear direction, bahaha.
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
inception. i--yeah. no competition.
31. What did you do on your birthday?
oh man, i spent the day with my parents shopping for shoes and clothes, and then spent the evening with my bitches, and they surprised me with cake and twitterature! and i also got, like, a ton of cakes this year, WHICH I LOVE SO MUCH. people just kept showing up with cake, and i honestly felt so loved and appreciated, idek. it was great.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
my uncle still being with us. that--honestly, that would have made my year perfect.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010?
oh, god. radically different from before. i'm wearing dresses now, and heels, and alksdjfsiogf. i am loving it. but at heart i am really still a t-shirt and shorts kind of girl.
34. What kept you sane?
friends. pixiebeanz. independence. my roommate. a combination of all of the above.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
dileep rao. and taylor lautner. and niall. and--it's a really long list.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
just--the entire mess with same-sex marriage, and then the dadt repeal. it's been a tough fight.
37. Who did you miss?
my uncle. it's weird because he isn't around. the friends i met in the states. greensounds. my cousins. my brothers.
38. Who was the best new person you met?
oh my gosh, i can't choose. EVERYONE HAS BEEN SPECTACULAR. i will say myunghee, faiza and hassan will always be very, very special to me.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010.
that living for yourself instead of other people is a lot more difficult than they make it seem in the movies. and that i'm maybe not that person, but i'm not willing to give up as much for my family as i used to be, and that i'm going to need to find a balance to work that out.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
it's an endless ride,
sometimes it takes you up
sometimes it tears you down inside~
1. What did you do in 2010 that you'd never done before?
well, let's see. i moved halfway across the globe. lived on my own. called a place not singapore home, and meant it. travelled 6 weeks with captureinsanity all over the states (and met half my usa flisters)! HUGGED MICHAEL CASTRO *________* HIGHLIGHT OF THE YEAR. sat on a helicopter. threw up in a helicopter. watched rafa play live. wrote epic mpreg, bwahaha. forgot my dad's birthday (I AM SO FAILY) i just -- grew up, i think, and while i like to think i've been doing that every year, this year posed especially difficult questions, things that i'm going to be working on for a while, so that's new. choosing myself over my family. that was new, too.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
when i did this meme in 2007, i said, no, i did not, and i will not, because i've given up on them. sticking to that!
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
well, some of them are close? does that count?
4. Did anyone close to you die?
yes. my uncle. and i didn't come back for the funeral, which will likely go down as the biggest regret of my life. always.
5. What countries did you visit?
the staaaaaates. canada. hong kong. macau, i think? thailand! ENGLAND (THANK YOU FOR REMINDING ME PIXIEBEANZ, I AM AN IDIOT.)
6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?
certainty. where i'm going, what i'm doing, who i am. i need to work on that, but i think - i hope - it'll come.
7. What dates from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
may 15th - michael castro, baby. 4th january - the day i flew to canada. 22/23rd november - the day my family came home. it's been a full year of special occasions.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
definitely canada. just realizing that i can do it, i can be on my own. that was pretty neat.
9. What was your biggest failure?
being selfish, the most selfish i've been in my entire life. and it's not something i want to repeat again, ever.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
i've had the worst flus/coughs/sorethroats this year, i don't know why or how. but other than that i've been surprisingly well.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
oh man, haha, the first class ticket to new york? tickets to michael castro's concert? ...actually, i'm gonna have to go with my hooker heels. they started me down a path of shoe addiction, and there is no turning back.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
my own. my parents'. my brother's. he's grown up so much, it's kind of overwhelming at times. i remember sitting in my kitchen in canada, looking at my phone and thinking, oh god, i'm not there, who's going to look out for papa? and i texted my brother and just told him you're in charge now, you're old enough, i'm trusting you to make sure he's okay, because i can't right now. and when he promised he would, and told me everything would be okay, that i shouldn't worry because he'd handle it--i just sat in the kitchen and sobbed a little. it's been - yeah, it's kind of been a breathtaking transformation.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
a friend's. she just - wasn't there, when i needed her to be. she didn't listen, she was thoughtless, she made me feel terrible for something that i couldn't control. those were dark days.
14. Where did most of your money go?
travelling, no questions asked. i've only spent six months in singapore this year. that's kind of a neat statistic.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. what did i NOT get excited about, oh man. there was mcas, and inception, and 1d, the social network, the best fic in the world from paitac, ciudad and bloodbelieve, there was being away from home on my own for the first time, going on a first date (HAHA, except for how it ended, whatever), getting to see nyc, IFUCKINGHOP. unf. just--a whole slew of things, man. what can i say, i live up to my namesake.
16. What song will always remind you of 2010?
probably love the way you lie. idk. anything off archie's second album. anything off kaleidoscope heart.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? i... am a lot more confused, i think. which is now where i thought i'd be.
b) thinner or fatter? oh god, so much fatter, i don't even--THE AMOUNT OF SHIT I'VE EATEN THIS YEAR. it is ridiculous. i am not proud.
c) richer or poorer? poorer. broke. it is a sad state of affairs.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
i'll have to think about that one. i want to say focus on where my career is going, but that would be a lie.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
see: 18.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
i spent it with my family, just soaking them in, listening to christmas music. what a way to go.
22. Did you fall in love in 2010?
with my fandoms, yes. with dileep rao. with niall horan. and, most importantly, with canada.
23. How many one-night stands?
zero. sadness.
24. What was your favorite TV program?
this is--not as tough as it would be, any other year. right now i'd have to go with vampire diaries, drop dead diva, and the defenders, just based on how much i look forward to the show every week.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
maybe. i am too tired to recall right now.
26. What was the best book you read?
a better question is have i read a book this year? and i believe the answer is no, no i have not.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
this is a good question! hmm. the sing-off! street corner symphony stole my heart. so did committed. just amazing, solid performances all round.
28. What did you want and get?
just about everything, i think. i got time away from my family, my own room, a chance to see the united states, i spent time with my friends and my family, i took baby steps away from overly-devoting myself to school, even during the school term. just--yeah. it's been a good year.
29. What did you want and not get?
magical good grades and clear direction, bahaha.
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
inception. i--yeah. no competition.
31. What did you do on your birthday?
oh man, i spent the day with my parents shopping for shoes and clothes, and then spent the evening with my bitches, and they surprised me with cake and twitterature! and i also got, like, a ton of cakes this year, WHICH I LOVE SO MUCH. people just kept showing up with cake, and i honestly felt so loved and appreciated, idek. it was great.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
my uncle still being with us. that--honestly, that would have made my year perfect.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010?
oh, god. radically different from before. i'm wearing dresses now, and heels, and alksdjfsiogf. i am loving it. but at heart i am really still a t-shirt and shorts kind of girl.
34. What kept you sane?
friends. pixiebeanz. independence. my roommate. a combination of all of the above.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
dileep rao. and taylor lautner. and niall. and--it's a really long list.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
just--the entire mess with same-sex marriage, and then the dadt repeal. it's been a tough fight.
37. Who did you miss?
my uncle. it's weird because he isn't around. the friends i met in the states. greensounds. my cousins. my brothers.
38. Who was the best new person you met?
oh my gosh, i can't choose. EVERYONE HAS BEEN SPECTACULAR. i will say myunghee, faiza and hassan will always be very, very special to me.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010.
that living for yourself instead of other people is a lot more difficult than they make it seem in the movies. and that i'm maybe not that person, but i'm not willing to give up as much for my family as i used to be, and that i'm going to need to find a balance to work that out.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
it's an endless ride,
sometimes it takes you up
sometimes it tears you down inside~