me is a foreign concept
if you know me at all, you probably know that a) being in a convent for 10 years turned me into an atheist, and b) my only religion is my dad. i've put him up on this pedestal that no one else will ever be able to even come close to touching.
my faith was shaken last night. my whole world was shaken, in the worst, most selfish, possible way, and even though things it was all a misunderstanding, even though the crux of the matter is all sorted out now, the fall out is scaring me. the collateral damage is scaring me. i'm scaring me, never mind my relationship with my parents, or their relationship with each other. i looked in the mirror this morning, and i didn't recognize myself anymore. there are just some places you can't turn back from, once they've been opened up.
i haven't been this uncertain in a long time. i'm just going to take some time off for a while to get my bearings back and try to feel a little less like i'm lost at sea.
my faith was shaken last night. my whole world was shaken, in the worst, most selfish, possible way, and even though things it was all a misunderstanding, even though the crux of the matter is all sorted out now, the fall out is scaring me. the collateral damage is scaring me. i'm scaring me, never mind my relationship with my parents, or their relationship with each other. i looked in the mirror this morning, and i didn't recognize myself anymore. there are just some places you can't turn back from, once they've been opened up.
i haven't been this uncertain in a long time. i'm just going to take some time off for a while to get my bearings back and try to feel a little less like i'm lost at sea.