wow...
its 6:19 in the morning. i cant even begin to explain tonight, ill try though most of you wont understand or simply think im wierd or some freak who is putting on a show. like i said, i honestly cant explain it. I got really happy around 9 ealrier tonight something with kendall....it just progressed from there. i was talking to holly and lunar since like 4, and i begin to get in this loving mood. i told them both like 20 times if they were here id hug them both, i dont really know what came over me i just got in a really really loving mood, and i needed something to hug..and around 5 it started raining again. i felt something drawing me towards nature...the outdoors...just everything. So at 5 i go outside and dance in the rain, completly nekkid ... having this native american song stuck in my head. i begin dancing like i never have before...this sounds crazy i know, but i was dancing somewhat tribal. it began to rain harder and i began to sink deeply into a body experience. honestly i truely believe i shifted. most of you have no idea what this is. in fact the only other person i know will know what im talking about is laura. So i danced in the rain, completly nekkid for an hour, from about 5 - 6 something. it was amazing, i didnt have a care in the world. It was like i didnt care what anyone thought of me, or how i looked, or care about anything really...i just did, not think. and you couldnt have interrupted me for almost anything. i snapped out of it and came insied and took a shower and here i am. Im most likely going to get so much shit for this post but honestly i just dont give a fuck. This is my journal, and this was my experience, so i just dont care what the hell you think of me, because i wouldnt have traded tonight for any amount of money. Its 6:35 in the morning and im really tired so im off to bed, but i just had to post this because it was really special to me. goodnight, or good morning rather...what have you.