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Time heals all wounds easing the pain, right? I can't tell you whether that's true or not, but I do know that time changes individuals.
I'm not sure if I've changed for the better or for worse either way the outcome of the changes I've gone through have proved positive. I've never considered the past to be forgotten, or followed cliches let bygons be bygons and I still don't; this is why this post is important and relevant. I've hurt a number of people as a result of my actions in the past. These people didn't deserve to be treated in the manner that they were and there was, and still is, no logical explanation I can give these people. I can't tell you why I did what I did or what benefits I reaped from it because to be honest there were none. I had no reason for doing what I did other than the point of doing it. There's nothing more I can add to this even though I feel as though I should keep writing. This is all there is to say. I was twisted. But the years that followed the breakdown I untwisted myself and because of that I can finally apologize in a public forum and be truly sincere.
I am sorry. Even though you've probably heard it numerous times.
This message will probably never reach the person that needs to hear it the most because of the shit I put him through. But maybe one day you'll see this and hopefully that day you'll realize that I'm not who I was then. Realize that my sincerity and these words, though written and not spoken, are honest whereas I wasn't when I knew you. It takes a lot of courage to have faith in mankind and even more to trust. I broke both and this is my only regret thus far. If I hadn't done this, we would probably still be friends.
See you in the next life.
Yours Truly,
N2C