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Ashley and I have decided to be friends. It sucks. I really like someone but they live far away and it doesnt matter. They arn't interested in me anyway. At least, I don't think they do. I think they are interested in someone else. I saw my ex-boyfriend today. I wanted him to hold me so much. I needed someone to hold me. I saw Amy today. I wish she could have stayed longer but Nikki is mad at her and she didn't stay. I miss Ashley already. She meant everything to me. She was the first steady thing in my life that I actually didn't want to give up. I want her back but she doesnt want me back. I messed up. Why am I such a screw-up? No one would ever stay with me. No one wants me, im too messed up. I am fat and ugly and I have issues.