Falling into Life Again
I guess it's been awhile since a serious entry so I figured tonight would be as good as a time as any. Life has been going great and I've come to understand and achieve what needed to be done to fix the areas that were not going so well. I will admit that I have been having little incidents of irresponsibility but nothing so much that it was affecting anything other than my sleep. I mean sometimes you just need and let life run it's own course. It was nice to let go a few times and feel like I did not have to hold onto the rails all the time. The idea of breathing and actually breathing are as different as living a life and living your life.
I've been opening a lot of doors lately, and so far behind every one has been an interesting look into others lives and ideas and quirks. One thing in common is that behind each one there has been nothing but smiles and laughs waiting for me. I will admit that it did take a little bit of alcohol to loosen my squeaky wheels to go through but it has all been worth it. I have gotten to know a few more interesting people in my life that I always wanted to know, just was too hesitant to do anything about it.
I think Casey said it best Friday during lunch: "You are pretty much the same way you were when I met you, just more responsible and mature." This was exactly what I was going for again. I had lost myself between my own stupidity and a relationship that was confusing and stressing and non-directional. Was I going up? Was I going down? Was I going here? Will I end up there? Eventually it became so nonsensical that the only thing to do was to see where things would land. I landed in my situation alone and I had to find what was familiar to me. I wanted to be the guy that everyone thought was cool and fun to have around for the laughs and times. I was never the life of a party but I always felt that I made a good addition to one.
Luckily I have had some great people to remind me of the good things in my life and of course Aden to keep me straight and true. As much as I would love to take the majority of the credit for this revival I really have to owe it all to you that have been around through this. This includes the people that have seen me cry, have made me laugh and have given me something to look forward to.
Between my son, my people, my music and my determination, I've been able to fall back into love with life again. Thank goodness.
I've been opening a lot of doors lately, and so far behind every one has been an interesting look into others lives and ideas and quirks. One thing in common is that behind each one there has been nothing but smiles and laughs waiting for me. I will admit that it did take a little bit of alcohol to loosen my squeaky wheels to go through but it has all been worth it. I have gotten to know a few more interesting people in my life that I always wanted to know, just was too hesitant to do anything about it.
I think Casey said it best Friday during lunch: "You are pretty much the same way you were when I met you, just more responsible and mature." This was exactly what I was going for again. I had lost myself between my own stupidity and a relationship that was confusing and stressing and non-directional. Was I going up? Was I going down? Was I going here? Will I end up there? Eventually it became so nonsensical that the only thing to do was to see where things would land. I landed in my situation alone and I had to find what was familiar to me. I wanted to be the guy that everyone thought was cool and fun to have around for the laughs and times. I was never the life of a party but I always felt that I made a good addition to one.
Luckily I have had some great people to remind me of the good things in my life and of course Aden to keep me straight and true. As much as I would love to take the majority of the credit for this revival I really have to owe it all to you that have been around through this. This includes the people that have seen me cry, have made me laugh and have given me something to look forward to.
Between my son, my people, my music and my determination, I've been able to fall back into love with life again. Thank goodness.